Assalammualaikum...
Last chapter of the year..! It feels surreal, realizing that this year is coming to the end.. Finally, the first solid year of me being here after years of leaving this space... 2017 had been everything, of success and failure.. Of tears and laughter.. But I wouldn't deny it's a year filled with thousands of spices... Here are some bittersweet memories of 2017..!
- Blogging
I thought my blogging spirit would leave in a minute, just like the previous year, but hey~ I'm still here.. ! It feels so good to be here, expressing my thoughts and emotions; this space really soothes my soul.. I even made a huge decision by stepping out from my comfort zone by having a domain of my own.. Well, let's just hope that it's a sign that I would be here for quite some time.. And to be honest, I didn't expect to have anyone to read my rants but I'm honored to have you guys as my backbone..Thank you so much, everyone whom had been supporting me till now...!😭
I've finally ended my diploma with flying colors and to be honest, I'm still in disbelief that my war with my dad had ended.. After 4 and a half years, we finally made peace right after I received my diploma scroll.. Not only that, I was completely spoiled by my siblings; a special homemade cheesecake, 2 bouquet and "Solvil et Titus" watch..! It was the day where I kept telling myself, "you're completely blessed, Razanah Anis.."💕
"Tok"..
The thought that she's no longer around, I would have to say, I missed her a lot.. It was never easy to lose someone whom puts the best faith in you, and I had been holding to the memories that I had created with her.. I even dreamt of her, twice, and for both dreams, I could see her face clearly, smiling to me... Even my mom was shocked to know that I had met tok in my dream.. She is and always be the most special person in my life..💘
New Koala Bear
Oh well, I might had lost one of my loved ones but I'm adding another one this year too.. This little sweetheart surely an alive koala as she really love to sleep on me.. Nur Aisyah Hannan, you gonna love me as I'm your fun mashu whom would be spoiling you with lots of cartoons but in the same, you'll be annoyed as I love to tease my little ones as well.. Get ready, kay..?
These kids were another blessings in my life.. Being a practicum teacher for 3 months was a roller-coaster of my life but they had been my everything ever since then... They made me laughed a lot, and stressed out a lot too but in the end of the day, I wouldn't trade my love for these kids with any other students.. I loved them so much till I kept telling myself, "These are my babies and they will always be, till the end.."
ps: There's actually another two classes that I taught but this is the most decent photos in my gallery and as u can see,they're over excited with camera.. So yeah.. 😓
Another best memories that I had this year.. I'll just hope that this wouldn't be the last memory that I had created with them.. Let's just hope for many more years of friendship, and Insya-Allah, till the end..
I've finally ended my diploma with flying colors and to be honest, I'm still in disbelief that my war with my dad had ended.. After 4 and a half years, we finally made peace right after I received my diploma scroll.. Not only that, I was completely spoiled by my siblings; a special homemade cheesecake, 2 bouquet and "Solvil et Titus" watch..! It was the day where I kept telling myself, "you're completely blessed, Razanah Anis.."💕
"Tok"..
The thought that she's no longer around, I would have to say, I missed her a lot.. It was never easy to lose someone whom puts the best faith in you, and I had been holding to the memories that I had created with her.. I even dreamt of her, twice, and for both dreams, I could see her face clearly, smiling to me... Even my mom was shocked to know that I had met tok in my dream.. She is and always be the most special person in my life..💘
New Koala Bear
Oh well, I might had lost one of my loved ones but I'm adding another one this year too.. This little sweetheart surely an alive koala as she really love to sleep on me.. Nur Aisyah Hannan, you gonna love me as I'm your fun mashu whom would be spoiling you with lots of cartoons but in the same, you'll be annoyed as I love to tease my little ones as well.. Get ready, kay..?
ps: There's actually another two classes that I taught but this is the most decent photos in my gallery and as u can see,they're over excited with camera.. So yeah.. 😓
Another best memories that I had this year.. I'll just hope that this wouldn't be the last memory that I had created with them.. Let's just hope for many more years of friendship, and Insya-Allah, till the end..
Dear 2017, you had been a blast year for me and although you brought me down for awhile with the death of my loved ones.. I would still say thank you for reminding me that there's no year without hardships and the pain had changed me into a better self... Well, not completely as I'm still struggling but I will try my best to stay strong.. Welcome 2018..! Feel free to step in but could you please shine up my life with more sparkles✨ and rainbow🌈, as 2017 had gave it best, I really hope you would too..!Well, not only for me but for everyone.. Shall you..? ❤
Assalammualaikum
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We're living in a sick world..
Where ignorance and evil conquers everything..
Where humanity barely breaths in ones' soul...
There's war everywhere..
In silence or in the public..
Where the murderer is being praised by some,
claiming that they're saving others life..
While others mourn for them to stop..
Hoping for their voices could be heard..
And yet, ignorance empower everything..
We're living in a sick society..
Where humanity is dying..
A man died,
And the world mourned for him...
Another man of different race died,
And some were laughing for his death..
"Why would you cry for his death..?"
"What was his contribution to us..?"
"He's not even a muslim, why would you condolence the deceased..?"
"We cried because there's humanity inside us.."
"We cried just because we know how hurtful it is to lose someone that we love.."
"If you're a true muslim, you'll know that he's still created by our greatest creator, Allah S.W.T.."
If only those ignorance could be empowered by humanity..
What a great world we're breathing in would be..
Let's just hope..
That one day...
This ignorance would crumpled away..
8.24 p.m: 19/12/2017
Assalammualaikum...
There are certain moments...
where words are meant to be spilled...
And that's when..
Love is getting nourished...
But..
There are times...
Where words are meant to be kept..
Love are meant to become the secret of heart..
And that's when...
The fear conquers it all..
The affliction of getting rejected..
The distress of losing someone we adore..
And the discomfort of continuing the relationship that we had..
That's how..
These unspilled words..
Conquers everything..
With the hope that nothing changes..
But deep inside...
It's crying...
Dying to be spilled out..
Hoping for something amazing...
The questions is...
Will these unspilled words...
Remain in silence..?
where words are meant to be spilled...
And that's when..
Love is getting nourished...
But..
There are times...
Where words are meant to be kept..
Love are meant to become the secret of heart..
And that's when...
The fear conquers it all..
The affliction of getting rejected..
The distress of losing someone we adore..
And the discomfort of continuing the relationship that we had..
That's how..
These unspilled words..
Conquers everything..
With the hope that nothing changes..
But deep inside...
It's crying...
Dying to be spilled out..
Hoping for something amazing...
The questions is...
Will these unspilled words...
Remain in silence..?
1.22 a.m : 14/12/2017
Assalammualaikum..
Time surely moves faster lately.. It's been almost a week since the last time I updated this space and to be honest, I've been meaning to update but somehow, I've been focusing in improving the SEO of this site more since the percentage is lower than I expected.. This is the reason why I had been changing my template back and forth, hoping for an improvement..
Anyways, since I'm on a long break and barely gets to go out, my life had been stuck in this little castle guided my queen and king.. With limited view and surroundings, and although I had much of flashback memories to be shared, there are times where I don't even want to rant on the flashbacks... Well, I didn't have any post drafted as all of my entries were basically written and posted at the same day, depending on my mood and how I wanted it to be..
Assalammualaikum.. I wanted to find a job while waiting for January to appear, as my degree would only started at the end of January next year... As I was viewing the insta story, an old friend of mine promoted a vacancy and the office is located at the North Tower of The Gardens..
To cut the story short, I only manage to pass the first session and didn't even get for an interview as they sent me back immediately.. There was a slight of frustration inside me. but there's the other side of me that remains so calm, since I had been praying for Allah to ease my journey, if the job was meant for me..
Assalammualaikum..
Being the youngest in the family, my father had set the biggest vision on me.. He had been imagining that I would accomplish his dreams, of becoming the certified accountant.. However, I'm not the easiest one to deal with, as "I'm filled with surprises".. That's how Kak Chik had been claiming of me..
Being the youngest in the family, my father had set the biggest vision on me.. He had been imagining that I would accomplish his dreams, of becoming the certified accountant.. However, I'm not the easiest one to deal with, as "I'm filled with surprises".. That's how Kak Chik had been claiming of me..
I'm always the laziest person in the family, I didn't study as much as my other siblings did, I didn't bother of getting number one in every school examination, I didn't care about my homework at all but one thing or sure, I always perform with big examinations.. I had a record of having a boyfriend since form 4 and I manage to keep the secrets till SPM results came out, freaking everyone out that I could still manage to get good results... That is how surprising I could be..
When I decided to stop ACCA and proceed to TESL, my dad freaked out the most.. He could not look at me, his eyes were filled with anger and there's no comforting words coming from his mouth and he keep depressing me on things.. He even sent a text filled with points of how I made a huge mistake, how my life would be a hell in the future and my biggest supporter atm, Ateh, had to face his anger too.. She called me, crying and begging me to perform my best, hoping that I could show to my dad that it was never a mistake...
28/10/2017, the day that would change everything finally showed up.. He didn't realize that my convocation was coming, giving me a signal that he didn't bother of it at all.. Everything was still awkward at first, he didn't show his smile at all, and we only look at each other awkwardly.. When it was the moment for me to come up on the stage, I had been chanting;
Untuk Papa... Razanah Anis, kau ambil benda ni untuk papa.."
That's what I've been repeating in my heart, and Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly.. When I finally came down to meet my family, I could see how Ateh had been focusing at the escalator, eager to find me.. And there's a person, looking at me warmly with a smile on his face.. A smile that I had been missing for years.. That's when I know, I finally did it.. !
"5 anak Papa.. Kau paling susah papa nak jaga.." - He used to tell me this 6 years ago..
Pa.. I'm sorry for being the most rebellious kids in your life.. I'm sorry for not granting your dream, even when you had faith in me.. I know how much you had hopes in me but I was afraid if I would fail in the end.. I didn't want to be the black sheep of the family and that's why, I'm trying my best to make a u-turn.. It was never an easy journey, without your blessings.. But it was a wonderful journey and seeing the success that I had made, seeing how I manage to make you smile in the end, it was the best feeling I have ever had.. I was hoping that I could have the ANC award for you but, it's impossible without your blessings but Allah helped me to be among the first class students.. And thankfully, that's enough for me to put a smile on you..There will be more for you pa...Always for you.. 💕
Assalammualaikum..
I'm losing my writing tempo.. I had been on this site for days, trying to figure what and how should I write.. That's the consequences that I had to face after abandoning this personal space for like, almost a month..? Okay not really a month but checking my achieves, I could have posted more that what had been posted..
Well, life had been busy.. September was filled with a slump.. As I'm thinking back, I really had nothing to be done but somehow, the time ain't waiting me at all.. I had been filling my life catching up with my korean dramas, spending my time with my family and I promised that will get back to this on October..
However, my October was filled with the routine of traveling back and forth from Seremban to KL. The route to convocation ain't easy.. There were various forms to be settled down, and coincidently, one of my sister was admitted to the hospital due to her pregnancy.. She stayed there for almost 2 months till she popped out only recently, a week after my convocation.. Due to that, my days were filled with baby sitting my niece and nephew whom my parents had been taking care off, as both of my parents had to spend their evening at the hospital, accompanying their child which is, of course, my sister..😂
And somehow, my days became more disaster when the eye infection appeared for more than a month as I had blabbed before.. To those whom had been wishing for my wellness, thank you so much.. It's still there but getting better now.. 💕
Assalammualaikum..
I do remember the moment I entered the school compound...
I was not so sure of myself..
What if the kids won't love me..?
What if, they don't want me at all?
I'm not one of those fun teacher..
As the matter of fact, I'm known to be good at scolding people..
And as far as I'm concerned...
I was there only to complete my final task...
To graduate...
To hold the scroll that is supposed to be on my hands years back...
Never in my dream,
That I would be a teacher, for once..
But eventually,
I became one for my diploma..
With one intention..
To achieve my goals..
To become a lecturer..
Well, at least, that was the only future I could dream of..
But..
That was the determination that I set up 3 months ago..
Now that everything was over,
I couldn't stop missing them...
How I wish I'm still with them..
"Teacher...!!!!"
I missed how they would scream and ran to "salam" me..
I was absent on of the last week, and the next morning, they ran to me and ask,
"Teacher Anisss!!! Kenapa teacher tak datang semalam..? Teacher sakit..?"
During the yellow house practice, the girls would come to me after each activities and hug me, with the excuse;
"Teacherrrr, saya penat..."
Oh.. I couldn't list out everything..
There were too many cuteness and silliness acts of them..
All of the memories were kept in my heart...
As if I know, soon, I might be forgotten..
But oh well..
Their love is way too big than I had ever imagine..
When the letter arrived early this afternoon..
I'm speechless..
I laughed reading the letter but my tears couldn't stop itself from coming down..
"Kasih sayang kami pada teacher tidak akan hilang.."
Ya Allah.. How could I stop this tears..
Dearest students..
I know you won't be able to read this now..
And I'm not sure if you might be able to read this in the future..
But if you do...
I just want you to know that there's no words that could describe my love for you guys..
I guess.. it's... just... infinity..
Yes..!
I won't stop loving you guys and remember our last conversation..?
"Teacher.. Boleh tak kami jumpa teacher sampai kami dah masuk sekolah menengah..? Sampai kami masuk Universiti..?"
"I'll always be here, with you guys... Kalau ada masa, panjang umur, teacher akan jumpa korang.."
And that's a promise, Loves.. 💕
I do remember the moment I entered the school compound...
I was not so sure of myself..
What if the kids won't love me..?
What if, they don't want me at all?
I'm not one of those fun teacher..
As the matter of fact, I'm known to be good at scolding people..
And as far as I'm concerned...
I was there only to complete my final task...
To graduate...
To hold the scroll that is supposed to be on my hands years back...
Never in my dream,
That I would be a teacher, for once..
But eventually,
I became one for my diploma..
With one intention..
To achieve my goals..
To become a lecturer..
Well, at least, that was the only future I could dream of..
But..
That was the determination that I set up 3 months ago..
Now that everything was over,
I couldn't stop missing them...
How I wish I'm still with them..
"Teacher...!!!!"
I missed how they would scream and ran to "salam" me..
I was absent on of the last week, and the next morning, they ran to me and ask,
"Teacher Anisss!!! Kenapa teacher tak datang semalam..? Teacher sakit..?"
During the yellow house practice, the girls would come to me after each activities and hug me, with the excuse;
"Teacherrrr, saya penat..."
Oh.. I couldn't list out everything..
There were too many cuteness and silliness acts of them..
All of the memories were kept in my heart...
As if I know, soon, I might be forgotten..
But oh well..
Their love is way too big than I had ever imagine..
When the letter arrived early this afternoon..
I'm speechless..
I laughed reading the letter but my tears couldn't stop itself from coming down..
"Kasih sayang kami pada teacher tidak akan hilang.."
Ya Allah.. How could I stop this tears..
Dearest students..
I know you won't be able to read this now..
And I'm not sure if you might be able to read this in the future..
But if you do...
I just want you to know that there's no words that could describe my love for you guys..
I guess.. it's... just... infinity..
Yes..!
I won't stop loving you guys and remember our last conversation..?
"Teacher.. Boleh tak kami jumpa teacher sampai kami dah masuk sekolah menengah..? Sampai kami masuk Universiti..?"
"I'll always be here, with you guys... Kalau ada masa, panjang umur, teacher akan jumpa korang.."
And that's a promise, Loves.. 💕
Assalammualaikum..
If you had read my Chapter 9, you might know that I used to be on Atkins diet for some period.. However, the problem that I had been facing while doing Atkins was that I could barely hold myself from being strict of avoiding the carbs.. I could resists the rice but I could not stop myself when it comes to kuey teow or pasta and as the matter of fact, there're times where I want to spent my money at the bakeries.. That's when I realized that Atkins is no longer ideal for me..
If you had read my Chapter 9, you might know that I used to be on Atkins diet for some period.. However, the problem that I had been facing while doing Atkins was that I could barely hold myself from being strict of avoiding the carbs.. I could resists the rice but I could not stop myself when it comes to kuey teow or pasta and as the matter of fact, there're times where I want to spent my money at the bakeries.. That's when I realized that Atkins is no longer ideal for me..
Luckily, I had another idol in this diet world as one of my sister used to be part of JK1M which was lead by Kevin Zahri, and not suprisingly, it was a huge success for her.. She managed to enjoy her diet and eat her favorite foods at the same time.. That was when I decided to ask for her guidance and thanks to Allah, I'm enjoying it so much..!
If you're familiar with Kevin Zahri ideas of having a handful of carbs and balancing with other nutrients needed during lunch or dinner, that's how I tried my best to stick with his ideas and came out with the idea of campak-campak cooking and here I am, sharing my campak-campak recipe..😂
Ingredients A:
Chicken
**Wish-Bone Italian dressing
** McCormick Grill Mates Montreal Chicken seasoning
Ingredients B:
Boiled Pasta
Olive Oil
Olive Oil
Pink Rock-salt
**Broccoli
**Cherry Tomatoes
**Shredded Button Mushroom
PS:// the ingredients marked ** indicates that it could be replaced with other seasonings /veggies that you want..
How to cook..? okay this is awkward.. How should I write the steps..? 😅
1. Mix up all of the Ingredients A in a bowl, just to season the chicken.. You could also season it with only salt and pepper a.k.a whatever you've in the kitchen..
2. Heat up your pan and pour in some olive oil..
3. Put in the chicken and grill it for awhile..
4. As the chicken is almost cooked fully, fill up the pan with broccoli and button mushroom..
5. Add in a bit of water to soften the broccoli, just to ensure that it's cooked fully..
6. Season it with some salt and add in the boiled pasta..
7. Lastly, add up the cherry tomato and leave it for 10 seconds before you turn off the stove.. (you could cook it longer if you prefer cooked tomatoes..)
Cinephile: GHOST HOUSE, BAD GENIUS, THE BATTLESHIP ISLAND, ABANG LONG FADIL 2 [2017]
Thursday, September 14, 2017
Assalammualaikum..
I tried my best to enjoy my life before my school practicum ends by catching up the movies lined in the cinema and even few hours before I'm back to Seremban, I manage to steal some time to watch one of the movies below with my students.. So, these 4 was the latest movies that I had watched but I think some of them are not available in cinemas anymore.. Yeah, I'm always late on this matter but it's okay and let's just proceed to the review.. 😙
I tried my best to enjoy my life before my school practicum ends by catching up the movies lined in the cinema and even few hours before I'm back to Seremban, I manage to steal some time to watch one of the movies below with my students.. So, these 4 was the latest movies that I had watched but I think some of them are not available in cinemas anymore.. Yeah, I'm always late on this matter but it's okay and let's just proceed to the review.. 😙
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Note: I would only provide synopsis for the first and the third ones, as the other two could be considered as current hot-picks. |
Assalammualaikum..
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There's lots of things that I need to update but since I would have loads of time starting next week, due to my school practicum has ended, I guess it's the best for me to keep on hold of every life matters..
As for today, I'm just feeling to reminiscing the journey that I had with this beloved writing space of mine, since it's officially on domain now.. Yes, you read it right.. I finally made a huge decision of taking 'Chapters' to the next level..!
2010..
Created with the help of a good friend of mine, with the in-matured mind reason, "to record the memories of my love life", yes that's how naive this space was.. Due to the innocence mind, everything was cheesy and to keep it private from my family, it stands with a cheesy url too..!
2012..
It was when everything changes.. I had a huge vision back then, determined to improve my writing, with the hope that I was accepted by the community.. And yes, I was the strongest when I had everything, him and the "Blogger Apakah" cliques whom was being the backbone of my improvements..
2013..
I abandoned this little heaven of mine due to the life crisis, of losing the person whom I used to love, and due to the stressful life events with papa.. And as the year past by, I tend to abandon this space, letting it dying and slowly been forgotten..
Nov 2016..
The month where everything changes.. I made a huge decision by forgetting the feelings and by hiding every past memories, I decided for a re-incarnation and guess what..? It was the best decision that I had made..
Aug 31 2017..
Dear 'Chapters'..
Welcome to the new, big world.. You had been loved by quite some people, which is to me, far beyond my expectation and I'm so thankful for every loved that you had been receiving..Well, I'm not sure how far you would grow since I'm such a noob-ie in this but one thing that's promising, I would never leave you again and hopefully, you'd always be loved by everyone whom entered this little chapters of yours.. 💕
with love,
Razanah Anis
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The old lady whom had not been waking up since the moment I came just nodded her head with her eyes remained closed.. I kissed her cheeks but refused to walk away, not till I managed to ask for her blessings from the one that I trusted the most..
"Tok... Anis dah nak kerja.. Tok doakan anis dapat kerja tau..."
The eyes that had been closed almost throughout the day, suddenly awake, she gathered her strength to sit and with a smile, she replied,
"Betul ka..? Tok doakan... Cucu Tok mesti dapat kerja.."
"Tok kena kuat tau... Bagi cepat sihat.. Nanti Anis dah kerja, Anis boleh bawak Tok jalan-jalan..."
Without saying anything, she nodded and smile.. As I was about to left, I peek at her whom was trying to sleep again and I tried to joke around with her...
"Tok, tambah doa... Doakan dapat jodoh.."
She smiled meaningfully at me and laid back on her bed, trying to get her rest.. Two days later, as I was just get back from the school and just about to have a quick dinner, I received a news that Tok had just passed away...
Dear Tok...
Thank you for being one of the best grandmother I had ever had... I will miss the jokes, the smile that you put each time I'm around, and the most important thing, the faith that you had in me ever since I was a kid... You had been literally everything to me, Tok.. You knew how crazy my life had been, but yet, you kept saying,"Anis yang akan paling berjaya nanti.. Pegang cakap Tok..."
Tok... You might not be around anymore but every memories that we had created, every positive vibes and faith that you had in me, those kept me alive... You'll always be missed and will always be loved, Tok..
نَّا للهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ.إِ
Assalammualaikum and hello everyone... Okay this is awkward.. Well I know I'd been missing for quite some time but trust me, I've been dying to write but somehow, lots of things had been happening and these few weeks had been killing me slowly.. There were lots of tears compared to laughter but oh well, I survived them all... Anyways, let's keep it for a while and just focus to the main topic first, aite..?
For those whom're not new to my life, you might remember that I've been trying to save up more this year and Vase had been helping me bit by bits... However, for those whom had been signing up with vase, you might notice that it's not really active anymore and I could barely receive any offer from it.. Thus, I came out with a solution to find another websites which provides money by answering simple surveys and to be frank, I've been joining it since early last year but as usual, I won't share it unless I've received the proof of it's effectiveness..
Allow me to introduce you to YouGov, the site that had been updating me with new surveys for almost every week and thanks to my patience in collecting the points, I manage to receive (SGD) $25 which equals to RM76.39, making it's runaway directly into my Paypal account..! Well, it might require a lot of patience in collecting the points but oh well, the result is so satisfying to my bank account.. So what are you waiting for..? Sign up with YouGov and start your earnings now..!
Assalammualaikum..
I hate leaving my blog empty for more than a week, simply because I know in the end, I would slowly disappear and leave this blog forever (one of the reason why I had been debating with myself in having my own domain).. Anyways, I'm not writing any vagary for today since I'm actually quite occupied for this whole week, with lots of life drama to be settled down but luckily, Tqa Wu had tagged me to receive this award, so here it is, another question tags about my life..! ☺
I hate leaving my blog empty for more than a week, simply because I know in the end, I would slowly disappear and leave this blog forever (one of the reason why I had been debating with myself in having my own domain).. Anyways, I'm not writing any vagary for today since I'm actually quite occupied for this whole week, with lots of life drama to be settled down but luckily, Tqa Wu had tagged me to receive this award, so here it is, another question tags about my life..! ☺
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Rules:
- You have to tell your readers 11 facts about yourself
- Answer the 11 questions that was given by the blogger who nominated you
Nominated 11 bloggers to take part in the challengegonna disobey this since I'm too busy to think of new questions.. Sorry for not making this fun anymore.. 😣
11 Facts of Flavnesz
- I was born in Kuala Pilah, it was my father's hometown but please don't speak Negeri's language with me.. I could not respond to them and even barely could understand them..!
- I'm not a fully malay girl, as the matter of fact, I'm an Indian Muslim girl which people could hardly believe and some might even think I'm joking.. So now, I hope you could relate why I could not speak Negeri.. 😉
- I'm an introvert whom could be talkative as the time past by but then, it really depends on how comfortable I am with that person.. 😌
- I hate meeting new people in bundle.. It's just a hell no for me.. Just one at a time please.. 😩
- I could be awkward to the new surroundings but then I could get attached to it easily.. And when I'm attached to it, I hate the facts that I would have to leave the place sooner or later..
- I'm good in answering back (menjawab) which is why I believe, I'm supposed to be a lawyer.. However, I should forget about it now and focus to be a lecturer.
- I would rather spend my credits to call people rather than texting him/her for hours.. Simply because I'm just not a texting person..
- My moods could be swayed easily, without any signal.. I could be sitting with you, laughing together and in the next minute, I could be serious and started to ignore you.. 😅
- I'm one of the clumsiest person in the family, and among my friends too.. 😁
- I had thousands of movies to be watched in my hard disk, but then I just too busy catching up with the k-dramas till I just had to ignore them for now.. 😓
- I used to have an imaginary friend when I was a kid and now, I just love to escape from the reality and live in my imaginary world.. Well, you might thing I'm a weirdo but I think I'm unique that way.. 😏
11 Questions From Tqa
💭If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?
Reading this made me feels tired already, so I guess I would just say no to the eternity.. 😅
Reading this made me feels tired already, so I guess I would just say no to the eternity.. 😅
💭What should they teach in high school but don't?
Hmm.. I'm not so sure about this since kids nowadays are just to adventurous and rebellious.. So I guess it's better if we keep everything low..
Hmm.. I'm not so sure about this since kids nowadays are just to adventurous and rebellious.. So I guess it's better if we keep everything low..
💭Who would you most like to sit next to on a 10 hour flight and why?
I've no one specified but I think I need to sit next to someone whom is super talkative and yet he/she could not annoy me at all or perhaps someone whom could charm me with anything, making it feels less than 10 hours journey, simply because, what's the point picking that person if he/she did not do anything to entertain me.. Right..?
💭You have $100 to burn, all your friends are busy and you have the whole day to yourself, what do you do?
I might go to the cinema or just having a "me" time by eating good food and perhaps, having a day vacation all by myself..
I might go to the cinema or just having a "me" time by eating good food and perhaps, having a day vacation all by myself..
💭What should parent stop teaching their children?
Parents should stop teaching their children from discovering the technology, especially youtube and mobile games..😐
Parents should stop teaching their children from discovering the technology, especially youtube and mobile games..😐
💭What would your perfect room look like?
Just a simple decoration with a classy look..? Okay how should I elaborate this..?
Just a simple decoration with a classy look..? Okay how should I elaborate this..?
💭What is something that your friends would consider "so you"?
The strong smell coming from the kitchen which could make everyone cough especially when I'm heating the "sambal" or trying to cook something spicy..
The strong smell coming from the kitchen which could make everyone cough especially when I'm heating the "sambal" or trying to cook something spicy..
💭What's something you are self-conscious about?
My physical..? Well I guess my consciousness on this is getting worse now, making me less confidence with myself... 😐
My physical..? Well I guess my consciousness on this is getting worse now, making me less confidence with myself... 😐
💭What gets you fired up?
Dare or challenges from anyone whom tried to pull me down, or when I'm eager to show the best side of me..
Dare or challenges from anyone whom tried to pull me down, or when I'm eager to show the best side of me..
💭If you were put into solitary confinement for six months, what would you do to stay sane?
Singing lots of song to entertain myself..? Oh wait.. That sounds insane.. okay I could not imagine myself in this situation..
Singing lots of song to entertain myself..? Oh wait.. That sounds insane.. okay I could not imagine myself in this situation..
💭What's something horrible that everyone should try at least once?
Horrible in terms of..? Food..? Love..? Experience..? I have no idea on this..
Horrible in terms of..? Food..? Love..? Experience..? I have no idea on this..
Assalammualaikum...
Vagary 1: 4 Akik
"Teacher, saya nak bagi duit ni kat teacher.."
Vagary 1: 4 Akik
"Teacher, saya nak bagi duit ni kat teacher.."
"Eh, what is this for..? A duit raya. for me.?"
"Ha'ah.. Teacher simpan je la teacher.."
Hasyir's sudden gift managed to caught her heart..It might be just a small amount of money to some people, but the random kindness had touched her heart.. On the next day, she visits the class, asking her students to hand in the books, and Chinta immediately approached her..
"Teacher, nah singgit.."
"Eh.. Dah kenapa ni..?"
"Teacher cakap semalam kalau tak hantar, denda singgit.."
Well, she had forgotten about it at the first place, simply because she didn't mean it.. But when the students reminded her, she didn't want them to think that she's someone that could be messed with, so with heavy hearted she accepted the money and keep in a separate place, so that she won't use the money for herself but she would use the money to by extra rewards for her students.. Hasyir walked while smiling to her, holding the RM1 notes, this time, there're 3 pieces of it..
"You didn't finish your work too, Hasyir..?"
"Tak.. tapi cikgu ambil je la RM3 ni.. Mak saya suruh bagi duit raya kat cikgu, boleh pakai buat beli buku.."
His random statement made her wonder, what did he told his mother about his new practicum teacher.. Another student approached her..
His statements left her in guilt.. What should she say..? How could she respond to that..?
"Teacher.. I was absent yesterday.. Ada pencuri kat rumah saya teacher.."
"Hah..? Rumah awak kena pecah masuk pencuri..?"
"Eh tak.. Dia cat pagar rumah saya warna merah.. Mak saya cakap pencuri buat.. Tangan mak saya luka sebab nak buang cat tu.."
Vagary 2 : 4 Mutiara
She had been watching the girl since the morning as she had to relief the class.. Everyone had been enjoying themselves, playing the games during PJ lesson but the little had been sitting alone at the corner.. She tried to approach the little girl but there's no voice responding to her questions..
She had been watching the girl since the morning as she had to relief the class.. Everyone had been enjoying themselves, playing the games during PJ lesson but the little had been sitting alone at the corner.. She tried to approach the little girl but there's no voice responding to her questions..
It was an hour before the school ends and it was the time for her to meet the kids again, and this time, she prepared an English activity for her students.. Throughout the end, she noticed that almost everyone was being active in her class, but again, the little girl, sitting at the end of the class, looking at her with a sad-grumpy face.. She tried to ask the other kids, if they know what happened to the little girl.. Another girl approached me and whispered, " Teacher, she told me that she missed her brother.."
She thanked the girl and approached the little girl..
"Can you wait for me when the class ends..?"
The little girl nodded and as the class ended, the little girl came to her.. She waited for the class to be empty before digging in the information.. She started the conversation by holding the little girl's hand, trying to give her a signal of concern..
"Okay.. Can you tell me about your feelings right now..? I noticed that you've been keeping that miserable face since the morning.. What happened to you..?"
The little girl lowered her head, trying to hold her tears..
"Okay.. Awak jangan takut.. Awak jangan anggap I'm your teacher right now, anggap teacher ni kakak awak.. ok..?"
She nodded and tears started to roll down on her cheeks..
" I missed my brother.. And this Friday would be his birthday..."
"You missed your brother..? Where is he right now..?"
"He's in another hostel, at Keramat..."
"And you're living with..? Why were both of you get separated..?"
"I'm living at the orphanage.. Ayah dah takde.. I have four siblings and everyone is staying at the different orphanage, except for the youngest.. Dia tinggal dengan mak saya..."
Hearing the little girl's story, she immediately hugged the little girl, trying to holding back her tears ...
"I know you had been missing your brother badly and I hoped that I could bring you to meet him... But too bad I couldn't do anything due to the transportation problem.. But can you please promise me that you won't keep anything by yourself anymore.. You've me right now, okay..?"
Vagary - an unpredictable instance, a wandering journey.. It's all about the bittersweet of life, the school memories that is ought for her to ponder about and this is just a part of the vagary of Razanah Anis..
Assalammualaikum..
It was the first day of Eid and she was in the car, on the way to Malacca to visit her late-grandmother's sister.. It was a dull trip and to kill the boredom, she started to scroll down her Instagram.. Well, what else could she expect from the timeline besides the family portrait and eid selfies, right..? As her fingers started to move faster, a unique picture with interesting captions captured her attention.. It's a dark-blurry picture of a brother helping his younger brother to wear the sampin, which to her, it was one of the sweetest gesture of sibling bonds..
About your dreams to become the flight attendant, I know you will get the job.. You're one of the good looking male-blogger that I used to know and remembering how well you dressed up during the gathering, you'd achieve the dream.. I'd always pray for your success, Pak Jirul.. And thank you for putting a smile and cherish my day.. Lastly, I hoped that we could always be the faraway-buddy, forever.. 😊
Sesi wajib setiap pagi raya. Aku tak pernah lulus ikat sampin sendiri. "Awak, tahun depan awak pulang tolong ikatkan sampin sampin ye..?" And the next sentence was his eid wishes to his friends..The captions made her smile as she knew how he had always been secretive about his love life.. Knowing that he's giving a clue, revealing that he might be stepping into the new world, nothing could make her happier.. They're neither BFF nor just the normal friends as people might predict but the fond memories of having him as her blogging buddy, major supporter and writing advisor could never be forgotten..
"Selamat hari raya pak Jirul... Nak duit raya please...?"Pak Jirul.. It was the name given by her, and sometimes,they would be calling each other as "Daniel-Larissa" as it was the main character of her novel but most of the time, they would address each other "wa-lu", as a sign of closeness..
"Bg acc no.. Nnt guwa transfer 💸.."His response made her mind went blank.. It's been almost 3 years since the last time they talked to each other, and it's not the response that she expected.. But then she decided to just give it a go, she immediately DM-ed him her bank acc number..
In less than 20 minutes later,"Assalammualaikum.. Memandangkan Pak Jirul dah bagi green light, wa tanpa segan silu nak bagi no acc ni..""Insya-Allah nanti wa bank in, tapi tak banyak ler.."
"Done..Mohon check akaun lu dengan kadar segera.."She immediately checked her acc from the online banking system and found a transaction:
Her hearts went wilder.. She never expected a real duit raya from him, not when they're not that close anymore.. She even expected that he had already forgotten her.. But yet, he managed to prove that she still exist in his memories..ATM MEPS IBFT FROM OFI
DUIT RAYA
MOHD AMIRUL BIN ****
2017
"Thanks Pak Jirul...! Semoga murah rezeki..❤ Wa terharu dapat duit raya dari lu.."And the conversation continues, catching up with each other's life and before the conversation ends, he asked,
"Amin.. Doakan aku dapat jd flight attendant.. ok.?"
"kalau lu tak jadi cikgu, lu nak jadi apa..? Novelis..?"Dear Pak Jirul.. I doubt if you'd read this, when you no longer write on your blog.. But just allow me to express this here.. I do miss your writing, and I do miss how we would discuss about the life of Daniel, Zafrul and Larissa.. You would always helped me by role-playing the characters and getting into the world of my novel, together.. Knowing that you remember those characters and as you hoped that I'd complete it, I'd try my best to accomplish it..
About your dreams to become the flight attendant, I know you will get the job.. You're one of the good looking male-blogger that I used to know and remembering how well you dressed up during the gathering, you'd achieve the dream.. I'd always pray for your success, Pak Jirul.. And thank you for putting a smile and cherish my day.. Lastly, I hoped that we could always be the faraway-buddy, forever.. 😊
"You only updated your blog like twice, deducting the GA and now you came back just to rant about your life..? "
Okay, that's the first thing that crossed into my mind when I wanted to update this.. It's bothering me for not updating often but I'm struggling in coping with my practical life which had been a hell, to be exact... I missed writing, I missed blogwalking and reading my favorite blogs but with my current hectic situation, there's nothing I could do.. 😩
To be honest, I am counting down for the days to be over.. It's not that I hate being in school, but maybe I'm just too tired coping with everything.. My new rented house is not the best home I've ever live.. I'm just feeling empty, missing my other 6 girls which had been part of my life for 2 years and a half..! Besides that, living with an unfriendly sister, with some of technical issues with the house: clogged sink and unpaid Astro with only TV2 as freebies ( I had to watch an indian news without subtitles while taking my iftar), without Streamyx or Wifi connection, how could I be happy with the house..?!
On the other note, I'm still struggling to cope with school.. Imagine yourself, standing in front of the noisy crowds, struggling to ask them to behave and give their focus on you, shouting and begging for the cooperation and at the end of the speech, all you want to do is just have a sip of water but you just can't and all you could do is just to be on your bed till it's the time for iftar.. I could cry recalling those memories.. 😭
Despite the lackness of their focus I do love my students so much till I hate the fact that I had to scold them when they're not listening on me.. Yes, I had lose my temper to one of the class that I taught yesterday, when a group of girls didn't care about my lesson, keeping their heads on the table with blank faces, and when I asked them to lift up their head, all they would say were "Penat la teacher.."😑
The male students scolded them, but they just didn't want to do anything.. Feeling like crying, I tried to gain their interest by playing a game, asking them to change sit for a while, for the sake of the game... But then they just making the heartless faces, ignoring my instructions till in the end, I lost my temper and shouted to them.. That's only when they started to move their butts and follow my instruction.. Even by then, they just make a face to me and started to show their protests on me.. Just why did the government didn't allow us, the teachers to punish the kids..? They're spoiling them too much and creating a disrespectful generation, to be exact.. 😣
Okay guess I've ranting to much of useless things again and I'm just feeling awkward after long days of not updating.. I should stop here and hopefully, I could catch up with my writing tempo within this week, with a better mind, while I'm still on the holiday.. But for now, I guess it's not too early for me to wish my readers, Happy Eid al-Fitr Mubarak and may Allah bless your days with happiness.. 💕
Assalammualaikum.. Okay, I know I've been procrastinating a lot lately.. Ever since I'm back from Terengganu, my mind had been extra miserable.. I'm here, almost all of the time, and yet, I'm not passionate to do anything.. I was in a mad situation of confusing feelings between normal crush and or real feelings (Chapter 46), then the school practicum started and the facts that I'm not living with my housemates (Chapter 45) wrecked my emotions..
To fix my emotions, I had been entertaining myself throughout this school holiday by occupying myself with the ongoing K-dramas and I was thinking, why not if I suggest it to you guys, right..? Well at least, my blog is filled with something.. 😁
📺 Suspicious Partner
Synopsis: Bong-Hee (Nam Ji-Hyun) was judicial apprentice . One day, she caught her boyfriend Hee-Joon (Chansung), whom whom also her colleague, cheated on her with her classmate. Hurted to know the fact, she promised him that she would sleep with the next man she bumps into, Noh Ji-Wook (Ji Chang-Wook). However, she was too drunk and she's unsure if she did had the one night stand with him or not. Ji-Wook whom was one of the best prosecutor, then became her leader of her training. However, everything became a mess when she was then accused of killing Hee-Joon, whom was found dead in her house while she was not home.
Currently in episode 20 out of 40 episodes.. |
To be honest, this would be the first drama of Ji Chang-Wook that I watched.. I had fallen in love with his acting in Fabricated City and this drama made me love him even more.. His gloomy past made him to be charismatic and cool, but , as the time past by, he became a lil bit childish without his realization.. Meanwhile, Nam Ji-Hyun had became one of my favorable actress since I watched her acting in Shopaholic Louis so when this two duo were combined, how could I ignore them..? 😍
📺 Fight For My Way
Synopsis: A story of four best friends, Choi Ae-Ra (Kim Ji-Won), Ko Dong-Man (Park Seo Joon), Kim Joo-man (Ahn Jae-hong) and Baek Seol-hee (Song Ha-yoon) struggled in their journey of adulthood.
Currently in episode 6 out of 16 episodes.. |
This drama is still fresh and so far, I'm loving it for it's lightness of storyline.. The main characters were divided in two pairs, one struggles in maintaining a relationship that had been ongoing for years, meanwhile the other pair had been struggling in chasing their dreams while believing that they could never be more than a best friend, somehow, they just care about each other, not realizing that love exist between them..
📺The Best Hit / Hit The Top
Synopsis: Yoo Hyun-Jae (Yoon Si-Yoon) is a member of a popular idol group. He has a lot of fans and he is a scandal maker. Meanwhile, Lee Ji-Hoon (Kim Min-Jae) is an aspiring singer. He pretends to be studying for his civil servant exam, but he is actually struggling to become an idol.
currently on episode 6 out of 32 episodes.. |
To be honest, it's quite hard for me to describe this drama since there's a bit of time travel in this drama. It might be confusing at first but trust me, you will slowly get the relationship between the two main character.. One thing that is promising, it provides good laughter as it's a time travel to the future, which you know, it would be confusing for the people in the past, whom had no idea the future, to cope with current modernization.. Oh yes,shout out to Lee Kwang Soo lovers..! He appeared as the cameo in this drama.. 😋
P/s: Changing my template for a change of spirit and it works, I guess.?
Assalammualaikum..
"Mashu, bila mashu nak kahwin..?
"Hah..? Kenapa..?"
"Mashu ni nak kahwin ke tak nak?"
"Eh, mesti lah nak.."
"Hah, habis tu bila mashu nak kahwin..? Mashu nak kahwin dengan siapa nanti..?"
I had received those questions by my nephew, recently while waiting for iftar.. We were both laying up on a bed, when he suddenly popped out with that sudden question.. Well, I had been receiving those kind of questions lately from almost everyone, since I was the only unmarried child left, but receiving the question, from this kid..? the one whom is only 6 years old..? I couldn't brain this thing..
Well he used to point out at me at every wedding, when people asked him, whose wedding was it,. He would quietly point up his finger up to me while smiling, telling the person that I'm the one who's getting married.. Okay, I received those signal from him but to answer those question..? Boy please.. I wish marriage is as easy you expected, but the truth is, they don't... 😷
You've no idea how startled am I to hear those questions from you.. Boy, I'm sorry I've no answer for all of your questions.. All I had was a nervous laughter, to cover things up and luckily, the time helped me to escape from answering your questions.. Well, I noticed you've been looking at me meaningfully ever since then, but could you just help me with a thing..? Since you've started learning to pray, please pray for your mashu to find her mister soul.. Could you help me with that..?💕
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