Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Assalammualaikum...
It's 4.20 am and here I am, realizing that I still have a blog that I had abandoned for quite something and thinking, "Hey! It's been a while... Let's write on you something!"
But then, here am I, wondering what should I write or how shall I start because to be frank, there's not much happening in my life besides being jobless, being an owl till Ibu getting so mad at me as she could barely see me on daylight and also, I believe I am gaining so much of weight till Ibu can't stop babbling at me, pushing me to go on a diet but at the same time, she got worried whenever she didn't see me having any meal for the day, forcing me to forget my diet and keep eating... So yeah, that's the summary of my life so far... 😂
There's actually two working position queuing for me; one to be the mentor of Cosmotots (Yeah, I might be teaching, guys!) and another one is a questionable position offered by MARA to the former students of KPTM. However, they were put on hold as we could not travel overdue to PKPB so yeah, I blame the virus for making me jobless!
However, I believe Allah holds the best not only for me but also for everyone else. Some of you might face the same struggle while some may even be facing the worse so I wish you nothing but to stay safe and chin up in whatever you're going through... I guess that is all for me, as another sign I am coming back (hopefully) and till then, have a blast day everyone... 💞
Assalammualaikum..
Oh God.. I miss writing and ranting here... The writing spirit is always with me in here but somehow, it's been almost 2 months for the since I accidentally spilled water on the keyboard and to type using external keyboard is just unsatisfying but I had to bear with this huge keyboard just for the sake of assignments..
Thankfully, I don't really missed out much as I had to write some self poems and short stories for one of the assignment; which is a bit burdensome but I have to say, I enjoyed it by bits.. hehe.. So... "How's life...?"
People might ask...
Well... Surprisingly, it's getting better.,.. I thought 2019 would be the worst for me, but Allah S.W.T is just to kind to pull me out from the misery... It's not really going as how I wished; I lost some and I gained some, might have to deal with hypocrisy as well and regained with one that I had lost before but here's a fact; I'm never alone..I'm blessed to have some friends whom would just keep me in positivity..
"Allah tu baik, kan...?"
It was a statement, rather than a question from a friend, to me.. My heart ponders when she asked me that because let's face it, it's just something that most of us might even forgets and in fact, we may not even realized about it.. Just one thing to be grateful off, to know someone whom would remind me on how blissful the life should be and never question or compare your life with others because in the end of the day, Allah S.W.T would always grant you with the unexpected joy of life..
So, isn't He kind...? Because to me, He is...
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p/s: It might already too late but since we're still in the eid mode, Selamat Hari Raya everyone... 💕
Assalammualaikum..
We went there before lunch hour and luckily, all of us settled within an hour. To best part..? Mine settled in less than 10 minutes, simply because there's no one on the line and I was the only person that went to "saluran 8" at that particular moment while some other saluran was filled with people queuing up.. Ateh even complained saying " Patut kau first timer, rasa feel mengundi.. Ni mengundi sensorang.."😂
I'm planning to update some poetry or other stuff but hey, my first voting experience should be potrayed here, just a reminder for myself how it was voting for the first time.. Oh wait, I'm not that eager actually.. I was too lazy to get out today and the first thing that crossed out my mind was, "Can't I just stay at home..?"
Yeah.. I'm not in spirit of voting although I'm the first timer, just because I don't want to queue up under the hot weather. But then, it was my obligation as the Malaysian citizen to vote so yeah, I did get off my bed and followed my sisters to the school for voting.
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We went there before lunch hour and luckily, all of us settled within an hour. To best part..? Mine settled in less than 10 minutes, simply because there's no one on the line and I was the only person that went to "saluran 8" at that particular moment while some other saluran was filled with people queuing up.. Ateh even complained saying " Patut kau first timer, rasa feel mengundi.. Ni mengundi sensorang.."😂
But as long as I did my part, who cares if I don't get the feeling I'm supposed to..? haha..
To be honest, I'm not a bias of any party.. Right from the start, I was completely neutral but if I you're asking me about my state, Negeri Sembilan, I would definitely vote for BN, just because Dato' Seri Mohammad was the best that we ever had.. I even told my sisters that if he's competing to be the PM, he would definitely be in my list and I won't even look on others.. I love how humble he was and how he could joke around with people.. He blended in just well..
But I'm not really sure on others.. I mean.. I don't really look up on others simply because I don't know or never been able to meet them in person but I do have a favor of a bit wanting to change, just to see what would it be if BN doesn't rule for once.. Would it truly be a better country..? Or would it be the worst..? Will they truly grant those countless words that they had been spreading around..? Won't there be any hidden agenda..? What would happen on the next 5 years..? And the most important thing, just what would happen in the future..?
And seems like, we're changing this time, although it's not official yet.. Well at least, Negeri Sembilan is changing.. I'm not truly delighted that my state is not under my favorable MB anymore but oh well, I should give the new ones a chance.. Who knows it would be better..? All I could do is to pray that the decision was the best let's just hope for improvement, day by day.. 😉
Ps// dear tok mad, thank you for proving to us that you could lead us a better life.. You're the best, tok.. 🙏
Ps// dear tok mad, thank you for proving to us that you could lead us a better life.. You're the best, tok.. 🙏
"All you need to do is to move on.. (He/she) don't deserve you at all.. Why would you cry over someone that had made you like this? That person had (listing all the stuff that could be count as mistakes)... Forget the person.. You deserve a much more better person..Just.. move... on... okay?"And then the person would slowly stop crying, and agree to move on.. Look at how easy the word could calm a person.. But here's a quick question..
If your feeling was real, would it be easy for you to move on?
People might say, as long as you could live out your life, it means you have move on.. But have they thought about the memories that remains, the silent cries that you had, the emptiness that you had hid behind the 'I am happy with my life' soul?
"Why bother thinking about someone whom don't even deserve your love..? That person had move on, so should you..! Open your heart to someone else.. Who knows you might be able to move on.."
Well,it's not that you chose to be trapped in this moving on game.. It's a feeling which could not be controlled by anyone.. Just believe in faith and destiny, no one knows what Allah has kept for us.. Right?
"Just try to be with anyone, at least someone.. That's the easiest way to move on.."
Using anyone in order to move on from someone, don't you feel that's a selfish act for you to do? What if you won't be able to love that person till the end, won't you feel the guilt?
It's not easy to move on, and I would never ask someone to move on.. I would only advice the person to slowly accept the reality and live your life to the fullest, prove to the person that leaving you was the biggest mistake he/she had made..
It's been 5 years for me and I am still not able to move on from the past.. But looking forward to the future while reminiscing the memories, they gave me strength to face the challenges.. And again, always have faith in Allah... 😉Nota kaki: It's only a opinion of mine afterall.. Feel free to share your thoughts, probably it would help me to think in a better way.. 😊
written by;
-Flavnesz @ Chapters-
Assalammualaikum..
I'm not sure where to start but oh well, let's just write whatever in my mind right now.. It's been raining throughout the day, and the cold breeze caught me, including my mind.. Not a brain freeze, for sure.. I was waiting for a classmate to stop by as he needs my help to deliver his excuse letter to the lecturer, as he's flying to Japan tomorrow.. What a lucky dude.. 😒
While waiting, I scrolled down the facebook timeline and stumbled into this;
Reading that, I started to reflect my crush-ing life, how far has it been and in the end, I could conclude, if this quote is true, I should have been in the case of "tepuk sebelah tangan" for several times.. Okay, Should I cry or laugh right now? 😶
Well, I'm not the "gedik" type whom easily attracted from one guy to another and I would not do anything to attract guys or something.. I would just act cool, and the feelings tend to stay for months or years before I move on.. So in my case, a crush is not a crush at all.. It's love at one side, maybe.. 😩
It's saddening myself after reflecting this but in the same time, I wanted to laugh at myself.. How silly my life could be if I do really trust on the quote.. So yeah, back to my senses and goodbye negative thoughts.. As long as you don't confess your feelings, a crush would always remain as crush, I guess..
P/s: If the quote is a true fact, I should be proud with myself.. It means I'm a loyal person.. hahahaha.. 😂Nota kaki: Sorry for this random write.. The rain made me lost into deep thoughts..
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