You are my light in the dark

You are the beating in my heart

But that is not enough

Will I ever be by your side

Your hair is dancing in the wind

Your eyes are burning off my skin

And I'm so happy when I see

That you are smiling back at me

You're leaving burn marks on the ground

Thank you God for what I've found

I don't know how, I don't know why

That you're my angel in the night

📺If I Stay

Synopsis: Mia Hall, a talented young cellist, thought the most difficult decision she would ever have to make would be whether to pursue her musical dreams at prestigious Juilliard or follow her heart to be with the love of her life, Adam, a rock singer/guitarist. However, a car wreck changes everything in an instant, and now Mia's life hangs in the balance. Suspended between life and death, Mia faces a choice that will decide her future.

Review: This story is just something to ponder about, in my opinion.. It's kinda confusing at first, as it kept on flashbacks of Mia's memory randomly but somehow, as the story is moving forward, it's just something for you to look forward.. I'm kinda in love in Adam's character since he had a good bf material with modest and loving attitude, contrary to a normal western rockers attitude while Mia herself, she's a cute introvert which you wouldn't expect she would hold herself well to be with Adam.. However, when you got to choose either to fight for your life or give up, and knowing that all of you family is gone, which path would you choose..?

Self-Rating: ★★★★ and a half because it's not that bad.. 

Since the start might be a pain as I'm depending on my parents and I had to set RM230 monthly just for my rental house, I should lower down my expenses on others by cooking for myself.. You might be thinking, why don't you find a cheaper house or just stay in the hostel..? Well, I did try to look for a cheaper house but failed and to stay in the hostel is more hellish as I can't cook, no washing machine and there's no wifi in the hostel.. To be honest, that RM230 is a complete set of a fully furnished house; bed, locker, kitchen, fridge, washing machine, tv, unifi and bills included..! The best part..? It was just next to my college and it's only 3-5 minutes of walking.. So yup, that's the minimal I could get..

I could restrain my lust on food as I should cook but I'm too lazy to cook delicious meal so diet meal is all I would cook.. Surely, I could reduce my carbohydrate intake, and let's just hope I could be back on track.. It's so hard to be on track, weh..!  Staying home is so hard when you couldn't hold yourself for your mom's meal..😭

How could I leave these girls behind..? I'm so eager for my degree to start as I could get back to their arms..! 3 years of Diploma and insya-Allah, another 2 years awaits, it's always been them whom stays till the end.. Well, the circle may gets smaller but there's always people come and go in our life and the best would always remain, right..? All I could do is just to appreciate these munch-kins while I could still have them.. 💕

I finished my diploma with the first class honor and DL for my final sem but sadly, I'm not part of those "selempang" students as I'm not a DL student of every semester.. My sisters were aggrieved with it as they truely hope I could achieve that title to win my dad's heart but Allah definitely knows better.. During the convocation ceremony, one of the best student whom was sponsored by MARA to study overseas quoted in public," You may try your best for your dreams but without your parents blessings, you would get nowhere... " 

Thanks to the speech, my father opened up himself and this time, I would not let the opportunity turns into a waste.. I truly hope for linear DL pointer this time.. 

I'm totally not an organized person, tbh.. I'm totally a very random person whom gets things settle only based on her mind.. When I feel like doing something, I would.. Same goes to my diet and expenses.. I installed apps to keep track with my diet and expenses but in the end of the day, I'm just too lazy to update them.. And lastly, I would uninstall them.. The same thing goes to planner.. I had one planner each year with the determination, but in the end of the day, I would forgot to update it.. 😅

So this time, with a new determination, I decided to just at least, get organized.. In order to be on strictly diet, to keep track on my expenses so I won't be a huge burden to my parents, and to achieve my DL target, I'm so gonna get myself together and be strict to myself.. 💪

I thought there's not much for me to be done but surprisingly, there's more than what I need to cope.. All the best dear self.. 😂