Assalammualaikum...

Out of all sad songs that I think related to my life so far, almost all of them could make me choked temporarily whenever listening to them but somehow, none let me into tears anymore... It's like I'm half-immortal from them and I do feel the sadness, the memories do triggered me but it ended there..

However, there's one song that never failed to get through me and made me into tears.. And somehow, once it gets into my ears, the lyrics would get through the inner me and I would repeat the same song, again and again till I'm satisfied of crying... 

I know there's lot's of songs that could be related with devotion but somehow, Imran just delivered the emotions better...Actually it's been quite some time that I forgot about this song, had been listening to "Menanti Janji" by Ronnie all the way to release my inner scream but again, I don't cry listening to it but "Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang" is just another different level of song.. *brings myself away*

It's been so long since my last rant on life and I just felt like ranting tonight... To be honest, I kinda broke my words on updating during this semester break as I didn't even realized that I had wasted a lot.. Well, I spent my first week by taking care of my sister's cats as she went back to her in laws in Ipoh while her cats were barely surviving.. Well, one of the cat is not in good condition, she couldn't walk properly, often struggles and couldn't be cured since she's too old as a cat.. 15 years of human's life is too much enough for a cat to live but oh well, as long as she's surviving, we'll just treat the best as we could.. 

Well, to be honest I could just update my blog since there's wifi there but here's another deal.. I'm too occupied with japanese movies during my stay there and somehow, I find them rather satisfying.. I thought my addiction ended but then 2 days before I'm back to Seremban, I started to watch a Taiwanese drama and caught to be in love with it and thus, my obsession on dramas continued once I'm back to my hometown.. I finished korean dramas in a week; Familiar Wife, Still 17 and My Id's Gangnam Beauty (gonna write a review on them, soon) and despite all of those dramas, I'm caught to in loved with TV3's Malay dramas as well.. So yeah.. I'm showering my life with dramas all the time.. 🙈

As much as I wanted to write, I kinda have some issue by debating, what should I write..? I wanted to complete the 7 Series of Writings and 30 Songs Challenges but somehow, I'm just in a good mood that I couldn't even be in my normal self, I mean, to be in melancholic me.. I don't even bother on checking the soc-med much, simply because I'm just enjoying my life to the blast..

Things came out pretty well for me so far.. Alhamdulillah, I'm striving my goals to achieved dean lists for every semester and my results came out pretty satisfying, I don't think on being lonely anymore since the dramas had been my companion and I wanted to focus on my diet but then, I had a thought of "kalau aku struggle untuk kurus, and masa tu tiba-tiba ramai laki hulur perkenalan, macam mana nak tau diorang ikhlas, sedangkan masa kau gemuk, nobody cares to come to your life..?" 

Good vibes had been hugging me all the way, which I don't even care on my misery anymore.. So yeah, maybe it's because good things had been happening to me so far.. And thus, I decided to just not stressing myself on "nak kurus" and I just focused on my life, to love myself more than else... So yeah, I don't know what's happening to me but somehow, I felt good.. Well, I know my stressing life would be coming real soon since I'm back to class starting tomorrow but let's just hope I could cope with it and hopefully, back to my writing life because I swear, I missed writing, a lot.. 

Assalammualaikum..

#7seriesofwriting 1: Love [click here]

#7seriesofwriting 2: Lonely [click here]
#7seriesofwriting 3: Jealousy [click here]

credits: Wirianna

Trying to put the words by words...
There's lots in this messy mind..
Yup, it was never empty...
Hang on... This is not a poetry..
But this is just a way, to see where my mind is going...

How do you portray a betrayal in a first place..?
Would it be, when your sister eats good foods and left none for you..?
Or maybe...
When all of your family when on a vacation without you..?

No?
They're not a betrayal to you..?
Okay perhaps not..
But it's disappointing.. Right..?

A disappointment might sound as the worst feelings in life...
But to be honest..
A betrayal would left the worst feeling ever..
It's an unspoken feelings, which could not be portrayed at all...
How..?

Have you ever been in a situation..
Where you trusted ones, sharing the secrets but then you got to know that there's no more secrets left..?
Or maybe, when you got to know that someone that you loved, was no longer fully yours..?
What about, when your soul loved someone, but ended up you got to know that the other half was mended or married to another person..?

There's no words to describe those feelings..
And when it happened..
All you would do is to cry...
Hoping that you could rewind the time..
And fix everything...

Could you ever say a word to portray the words..?
No, right..?
It remained unknown in the life's dictionary...
Which is why it's the worst feelings ever..!

People could say...
"If life gives you lemon, make a lemonade..!"
But when you're betrayed..
There's no time for a lemonade..
As the lemon itself had wound you deeply...

So..
Would you love to join me for a sesh of lemonade...?

I had been postponing this post for too long..!Wrote half of it before entering semester 4 and apparently, my semester 4 had ended for a week and semester 5 is coming up real soon so I should immediately post this one up.. haha.. To be honest, I couldn't think of any shorter name for the title, simply because I think it would be much proper for the search engine and hopefully, it would at least be a help for my future junior especially for the ex-Diploma in TESL of KUPTM KL whom might be considering if they should take this course or not, simply because it's quite uncommon to everyone.. 

 "Isn't it safer for me to just be in TESL line?"

You guys are lucky as there will be Bachelor in TESL in KUPTM soon and as far that I know, the first batch would be this year.. I'm not sure if it's true or not but maybe you could check this personally on the website..? 

"What could I be in the future if I'm taking this?"

Well, this subject would be the route for you to become anything.. You could work on the corporate line, the media, translator; basically involving companies or you could still become a teacher if you want to but obviously, not a government ones.. According to the dean, she encouraged her students to take this course instead of TESL simply because, there's no restriction on your future and it's much more flexible in what you could be.. Plus, most our seniors do get a job immediately right after the internship, so yeah, no worries on what you would be.. Allah SWT would definitely lead you to the best, just put your best faith in "Him".

Okay so basically, I managed to skip the first two semester due to full credit transfer and I guess I should remind you that KUPTM normally changes it's course planner quite often, so there's a possibility that you would take other subject first instead of what I listed on here, but still, you will have these subjects in your future list.. I could only help you by giving a brief of what the subjects that I had taken were all about and hopefully, you would get the essential idea of how your life would be.. hehe..

i. POLITICS & WORLD CIVILISATION 
If you're not into politics, this subject might be a boring ones for you but no worries, the lecturer for this subject is such a prince charming since he tolerated with us a lot and I'm sure he will remain the same with others. Anyways, all you would be learning are the various theory of politics itself, the divisions, the wars; World War I & II, and the crisis of Middle East countries. As for the assignment, the only major ones is for your to work in a group and each of the group member needs to select a country of same continent and do some political research of the country. The rest..? It's quiz and final paper..

ii. ACADEMIC LISTENING AND SPEAKING
This is one of the subject that none should fail.. It's the easiest thing ever since all you need to do is to listen and speak.. Well, perhaps some writing but listening is the key.. 100% coursework depending on both of your skills..

iii. INTRODUCTION TO THE STUDY OF LANGUAGE 
This is one of the hard core subject but let me declare a thing.. I love this class the most, simply because of the lecturer was so kind and good in teaching.. You might struggle a bit in understanding the subject but if you're my juniors in tesl, I would say this is something similar to sociolinguistics but it's a lighter version of it.. Well, the final exam for her paper wasn't easy but at least, I scored the best for the coursework and yup, in the end, I don't care about the final much.. hehe..

iv. ENGLISH LANGUAGE EVOLUTION AND CHANGE

This one, is a killer subject of all, so far but I have to say, there were times I felt that I'm having fun studying the histories of English.. There's a final paper for this subject and the coursework wasn't my favoritism.. Furthermore, it was taught by the dean at my time, and it was hectic to manage with her schedule... There were times where we had replacement class on Saturday but the bonus thing, she provides us free breakfast of cereals and milk.. 💕

v. TAMADUN ISLAM DAN TAMADUN ASIA (TITAS) 
I personally don't favor this subject.. Well, don't get me wrong.. I love history but this one, most of it was something that we already know and lecturer was kinda dull to me.. Trust me, I only read all of the notes for the final paper by myself as I couldn't catch him in class.. He got distracted easily, often of topics and he loved talking about early marriage.. But, I had fun with the coursework, especially when we're assigned to be in a group, to shoot a video and present about the unique traditions or culture.. Mine was the best since we made some research regarding "kuda kepang" which was something new for us..,However, it's quite frightening to remember the masks or the dance since, you know, they're mystical in a way..  😅

Well, to be honest, the start of my degree wasn't really bad but for now, I'm kinda nervous waiting for my semester 4 result.. I would only update the review of semester 4 once my result is out which most probably, by next week.. It's so fast, I know... I didn't even noticed my holiday is coming to an end.. huu... Anyways, wish me luck please...! 🙈

Assalammualaikum...

I'm finally free for this few weeks..!! Well, hopefully I won't use the time to procrastinate by watching dramas only.. hehe.. To be honest, I'm in mood of singing lately, which I noticed I would just hum anywhere, whenever I'm alone which is, kinda weird for me.. But since I'm in such a mood, I was thinking of, why not I'm using it to complete the "30 Songs Challenge" that I had left for quite some time..

To be honest, it took me quite some time to think on a song that triggers my happy mood, because, most of the time, I preferred to sing or listen on soothing songs, which more made me just smile, all fluttery instead of feeling, "I'm so happy..!"... You get what I mean..?