Chapter 50: Dear (...)

Thursday, June 29, 2017


It was the first day of Eid and she was in the car, on the way to Malacca to visit her late-grandmother's sister.. It was a dull trip and to kill the boredom, she started to scroll down her Instagram.. Well, what else could she expect from the timeline besides the family portrait and eid selfies, right..? As her fingers started to move faster, a unique picture with interesting captions captured her attention.. It's a dark-blurry picture of a brother helping his younger brother to wear the sampin, which to her, it was one of the sweetest gesture of sibling bonds..
Sesi wajib setiap pagi raya. Aku tak pernah lulus ikat sampin sendiri. "Awak, tahun depan awak pulang tolong ikatkan sampin sampin ye..?" And the next sentence was his eid wishes to his friends..
The captions made her smile as she knew how he had always been secretive about his love life.. Knowing that he's giving a clue, revealing that he might be stepping into the new world, nothing could make her happier.. They're neither BFF nor just the normal friends as people might predict but the fond memories of having him as her blogging buddy, major supporter and writing advisor could never be forgotten..
"Selamat hari raya pak Jirul... Nak duit raya please...?"
Pak Jirul.. It was the name given by her, and sometimes,they would be calling each other as "Daniel-Larissa" as it was the main character of her novel but most of the time, they would address each other "wa-lu", as a sign of closeness..
"Bg acc no.. Nnt guwa transfer πŸ’Έ.."
His response made her mind went blank.. It's been almost 3 years since the last time they talked to each other, and it's not the response that she expected.. But then she decided to just give it a go, she immediately DM-ed him her bank acc number..

"Assalammualaikum.. Memandangkan Pak Jirul dah bagi green light, wa tanpa segan silu nak bagi no acc ni.."
"Insya-Allah nanti wa bank in, tapi tak banyak ler.."
In less than 20 minutes later,
"Done..Mohon check akaun lu dengan kadar segera.."
She immediately checked her acc from the online banking system and found a transaction:



 Her hearts went wilder.. She never expected a real duit raya from him, not when they're not that close anymore.. She even expected that he had already forgotten her.. But yet, he managed to prove that she still exist in his memories..
"Thanks Pak Jirul...! Semoga murah rezeki..❤ Wa terharu dapat duit raya dari lu.."
"Amin.. Doakan aku dapat jd flight attendant.. ok.?"
And the conversation continues, catching up with each other's life and before the conversation ends, he asked,
"kalau lu tak jadi cikgu, lu nak jadi apa..? Novelis..?"
Dear Pak Jirul.. I doubt if you'd read this, when you no longer write on your blog.. But just allow me to express this here.. I do miss your writing, and I do miss how we would discuss about the life of Daniel, Zafrul and Larissa.. You would always helped me by role-playing the characters and getting into the world of my novel, together.. Knowing that you remember those characters and as you hoped that I'd complete it, I'd try my best to accomplish it..

About your dreams to become the flight attendant, I know you will get the job.. You're one of the good looking male-blogger that I used to know and remembering how well you dressed up during the gathering, you'd achieve the dream.. I'd always pray for your success, Pak Jirul.. And thank you for putting a smile and cherish my day.. Lastly, I hoped that we could always be the faraway-buddy, forever.. 😊

Chapter 49: Rant on Life - June

Saturday, June 24, 2017


"You only updated your blog like twice, deducting the GA and now you came back just to rant about your life..? "
Okay, that's the first thing that crossed into my mind when I wanted to update this.. It's bothering me for not updating often but I'm struggling in coping with my practical life which had been a hell, to be exact... I missed writing, I missed blogwalking and reading my favorite blogs but with my current hectic situation, there's nothing I could do.. 😩

To be honest, I am counting down for the days to be over.. It's not that I hate being in school, but maybe I'm just too tired coping with everything.. My new rented house is not the best home I've ever live.. I'm just feeling empty, missing my other 6 girls which had been part of my life for 2 years and a half..! Besides that, living with an unfriendly sister, with some of technical issues with the house: clogged sink and unpaid Astro with only TV2 as freebies ( I had to watch an indian news without subtitles while taking my iftar), without Streamyx or Wifi connection, how could I be happy with the house..?!

On the other note, I'm still struggling to cope with school.. Imagine yourself, standing in front of the noisy crowds, struggling to ask them to behave and give their focus on you, shouting and begging for the cooperation and at the end of the speech, all you want to do is just have a sip of water but you just can't and all you could do is just to be on your bed till it's the time for iftar..  I could cry recalling those memories.. 😭

Despite the lackness of their focus I do love my students so much till I hate the fact that I had to scold them when they're not listening on me.. Yes, I had lose my temper to one of the class that I taught yesterday, when a group of girls didn't care about my lesson, keeping their heads on the table with blank faces, and when I asked them to lift up their head, all they would say were "Penat la teacher.."πŸ˜‘

The male students scolded them, but they just didn't want to do anything.. Feeling like crying, I tried to gain their interest by playing a game, asking them to change sit for a while, for the sake of the game... But then they just making the heartless faces, ignoring my instructions till in the end, I lost my temper and shouted to them.. That's only when they started to move their butts and follow my instruction.. Even by then, they just make a face to me and started to show their protests on me..  Just why did the government didn't allow us, the teachers to punish the kids..? They're spoiling them too much and creating a disrespectful generation, to be exact.. 😣

Okay guess I've ranting to much of useless things again and I'm just feeling awkward after long days of not updating.. I should stop here and hopefully, I could catch up with my writing tempo within this week, with a better mind, while I'm still on the holiday.. But for now, I guess it's not too early for me to wish my readers, Happy Eid al-Fitr Mubarak and may Allah bless your days with happiness.. πŸ’•

CINEPHILE: Ongoing K-Dramas, Anyone..?

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Assalammualaikum.. Okay, I know I've been procrastinating a lot lately.. Ever since I'm back from Terengganu, my mind had been extra miserable.. I'm here, almost all of the time, and yet, I'm not passionate to do anything.. I was in a mad situation of confusing feelings between normal crush and or real feelings (Chapter 46), then the school practicum started and the facts that I'm not living with my housemates (Chapter 45) wrecked my emotions..

To fix my emotions, I had been entertaining myself throughout this school holiday by occupying myself with the ongoing K-dramas and I was thinking, why not if I suggest it to you guys, right..? Well at least, my blog is filled with something.. 😁

πŸ“Ί Suspicious Partner
Synopsis: Bong-Hee (Nam Ji-Hyun) was judicial apprentice . One day, she caught her boyfriend Hee-Joon (Chansung), whom whom also her colleague, cheated on her with her classmate. Hurted to know the fact, she promised him that she would sleep with the next man she bumps into, Noh Ji-Wook (Ji Chang-Wook). However, she was too drunk and she's unsure if she did had the one night stand with him or not. Ji-Wook  whom was one of the best prosecutor, then became her leader of her training. However, everything became a mess when she was then accused of killing Hee-Joon, whom was found dead in her house while she was not home.

Currently in episode 20 out of 40 episodes..
To be honest, this would be the first drama of Ji Chang-Wook that I watched.. I had fallen in love with his acting in Fabricated City and this drama made me love him even more.. His gloomy past made him to be charismatic and cool, but , as the time past by, he became a lil bit childish without his realization..  Meanwhile, Nam Ji-Hyun had became one of my favorable actress since I watched her acting in Shopaholic Louis so when this two duo were combined, how could I ignore them..? 😍

πŸ“Ί Fight For My Way
Synopsis: A story of four best friends, Choi Ae-Ra (Kim Ji-Won), Ko Dong-Man (Park Seo Joon), Kim Joo-man (Ahn Jae-hong) and Baek Seol-hee (Song Ha-yoon) struggled in their journey of adulthood.

Currently in episode 6 out of 16 episodes..
This drama is still fresh and so far, I'm loving it for it's lightness of storyline.. The main characters were divided in two pairs, one struggles in maintaining a relationship that had been ongoing for years, meanwhile the other pair had been struggling in chasing their dreams while believing that they could never be more than a best friend, somehow, they just care about each other, not realizing that love exist between them.. 

πŸ“ΊThe Best Hit / Hit The Top
Synopsis: Yoo Hyun-Jae (Yoon Si-Yoon) is a member of a popular idol group. He has a lot of fans and he is a scandal maker. Meanwhile, Lee Ji-Hoon (Kim Min-Jae) is an aspiring singer. He pretends to be studying for his civil servant exam, but he is actually struggling to become an idol.

currently on episode 6 out of 32 episodes..
To be honest, it's quite hard for me to describe this drama since there's a bit of time travel in this drama. It might be confusing at first but trust me, you will slowly get the relationship between the two main character.. One thing that is promising, it provides good laughter as it's a time travel to the future, which you know, it would be confusing for the people in the past, whom had no idea the future, to cope with current modernization.. Oh yes,shout out to Lee Kwang Soo lovers..! He appeared as the cameo in this drama.. πŸ˜‹

P/s: Changing my template for a change of spirit and it works, I guess.?

Chapter 48: I'm Getting Married...?!

Saturday, June 3, 2017

"Mashu, bila mashu nak kahwin..?
"Hah..? Kenapa..?"
"Mashu ni nak kahwin ke tak nak?"
"Eh, mesti lah nak.."
"Hah, habis tu bila mashu nak kahwin..? Mashu nak kahwin dengan siapa nanti..?"
I had received those questions by my nephew, recently while waiting for iftar.. We were both laying up on a bed, when he suddenly popped out with that sudden question.. Well, I had been receiving those kind of questions lately from almost everyone, since I was the only unmarried child left, but receiving the question, from this kid..? the one whom is only 6 years old..? I couldn't brain this thing..

Well he used to point out at me at every wedding, when people asked him, whose wedding was it,. He would quietly point up his finger up to me while smiling, telling the person that I'm the one who's getting married.. Okay, I received those signal from him but to answer those question..? Boy please.. I wish marriage is as easy you expected, but the truth is, they don't... 😷

You've no idea how startled am I to hear those questions from you.. Boy, I'm sorry I've no answer for all of your questions.. All I had was a nervous laughter, to cover things up and luckily, the time helped me to escape from answering your questions.. Well, I noticed you've been looking at me meaningfully ever since then, but could you just help me with a thing..? Since you've started learning to pray, please pray for your mashu to find her mister soul.. Could you help me with that..?πŸ’•

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