Chapter 19: Route to Resolution - January

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Assalammualaikum.. I am being serious when I said that I need to be a grown up and make my life more meaningful.. Since I had updated my to-do list, it's better for me to update the progress, monthly.. Well, I'm the type of person whom always takes thing easily and "Alah, nanti boleh buat lagi." reflected my personality perfectly.. Hopefully, this monthly reflection could change me to become more responsible person in life.. πŸ’ͺ

  • Get a part time job.
My friend and I applied a part time job at Kumon but sadly, I was the only person to get the reply while my friend didn't receive any respond.. Due to that matter, I had to reject the offer as I might need to grab the Uber/Grab car as my work transportation and paying it for myself ain't a good idea.. Plus, the sudden idea of being in short semester made me think the worst.. What if I couldn't cope with it? So yeah, I would prefer to be safe and let's just focus on completing the semester first and probably by August, I am done with my diploma... Only by then, I would get back to you, Kumon!
  • Spend wisely.
I installed a spending tracker apps in my laptop but it's hard for me to update it regularly since I'm not in front of the laptop regularly.. Guess I need to find the similar app to be installed in my phone .. Anyways, I couldn't control myself much in January since it's still early in semester and I took the opportunity to hang out with my friends so most of my money goes to the moment I spent with them (especially on food).. One good thing, I'm able to control myself from make-up stuff.. Gonna improve this from time to time.. Oh wait, I forgot to mention, Most of the money goes to the notes and revision book too.. πŸ˜‡
  • Saving money.
I bought a cute money box with small padlock from Mr.Diy and start the monthly saving challenge.. I  deliberately left it in my Seremban's house closet since I know I would definitely use them if I keep it by my side.. One thing I'm glad the most is Vase keep sending me money and they strictly go into my moneybox, might be not much in amount but hey, I received RM 8.60 in total for this month..! Thank you Vase..! πŸ’–

  • Book writing.
I'm not forgetting this but I'm facing internal conflict with myself a lot this month so yeah, no progress at all.. I was thinking, maybe I should re-publish what I had posted before and maybe, you could give me an opinion whether to proceed or probably, forget it.. 
  • Stop being an angry bird.
I want to proudly announce, Razanah Anis is no longer a grump, angry bird! Well, I'm quite in a good mood so far, handling my anger well and this was approved by my housemates.. Hopefully, I could keep this in pace..πŸ’†
  • Focus on diet..
This one, was still in disaster..! I'm obsessed with Myeondong Topokki's food while the rainy season had  made me to crave for instant noodle and since I still have some packets in my food storage, goodbye diet... Goodbye Imaan Boutique dress... Hopefully February would be kind to me.. 😭

Chapter 18: Mind Talks

Tuesday, January 24, 2017


I'm not sure where to start but oh well, let's just write whatever in my mind right now.. It's been raining throughout the day, and the cold breeze caught me, including my mind.. Not a brain freeze, for sure.. I was waiting for a classmate to stop by as he needs my help to deliver his excuse letter to the lecturer, as he's flying to Japan tomorrow.. What a lucky dude.. πŸ˜’

While waiting, I scrolled down the facebook timeline and stumbled into this;

Reading that, I started to reflect my crush-ing life, how far has it been and in the end, I could conclude, if this quote is true,  I should have been in the case of "tepuk sebelah tangan" for several times.. Okay, Should I cry or laugh right now? 😢

Well, I'm not the "gedik" type whom easily attracted from one guy to another and I would not do anything to attract guys or something.. I would just act cool, and the feelings tend to stay for months or years before I move on.. So in my case, a crush is not a crush at all.. It's love at one side, maybe.. 😩

It's saddening myself after reflecting this but in the same time, I wanted to laugh at myself.. How silly my life could be if I do really trust on the quote.. So yeah, back to my senses and goodbye negative thoughts.. As long as you don't confess your feelings, a crush would always remain as crush, I guess.. 

P/s: If the quote is a true fact, I should be proud with myself.. It means I'm a loyal person.. hahahaha.. πŸ˜‚ 
Nota kaki: Sorry for this random write.. The rain made me lost into deep thoughts.. 

Cinephile - XXX: Return of Xander Cage [2017]

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Assalammualaikum.. The semester had just started and before I got fully occupied with the assignments, it's the best for me to spend some quality time with my friends.. Since we had no class schedule on Friday, we decided for a hang out and catch a movie for an entertainment.. It was a new released movie in line, so I was thinking, why not if I share this with you guys, kan?

 XXX: Return of Xander Cage


Vin Diesel, Donnie Yen, Deepika Padukone, Kris Wu, Ruby Rose, Tony Jaa, Nina Dobrev, Toni Collette, Samuel L. Jackson

A chaos of the stolen pandora box caused Xander Cage to make a come back, though he was actually announced as dead.. In order to complete the mission, he collected his old fellows but then, surprise by surprise awaited for him.. 
I entered the cinema with zero knowledge about this movie.. My friend was eager to watch this, as she was eager to watch Kris Wu and being a good friend, I agreed to accompany her..My mind went more blank when the cashier asked, "Semua dah lebih 18 ke?", being a random Malaysian, my mind immediately thought that it would be an 18sx movie.. πŸ˜…

I should had caught the momentum, since Vin Diesel are there, what else should I expect other than action movie? Sorry for my noob-ie mind.. But oh well, I have to say, this was a great movie and I really enjoy it.. There's no denial that Vin Diesel is one of the best when it comes to action genre and I love the fact that actors from various countries were involved.. I would say, I love every character from the antagonist to protagonist as each of them played their role perfectly.. 

Well, the only weakness that I found was at the climax part where the best fight occur. They made it a bit draggy, accompanied by loud musics without any dialogue, and all they were doing fighting while the main actresses was showing their unity and skills in fighting the protagonist..  It's hard to explain this, which is why you need to watch it by yourself.. *marketing strategy menjadi tak? *πŸ˜†
Self Rating:★★★★☆Overall, it would still be in my favourite movie list, and believe me, it's worth every penny for this good movie.. 

Chapter 17: Rant on Life

Wednesday, January 18, 2017


Life had been harsh to me lately.. Nothing comforts me and it's been years since I had this feeling.. I'm feeling empty and Idk, probably too tired of everything.. Guess it's gone together while I was in "drapetomania" mode? 😷

I had been back to my student life as the senior year at KUPTM KL since last Monday and to be frank, I'm not having fun at all.. I woke up everyday, motivated to become a good student but end up being a sleepy and grumpy student. πŸ˜ͺ

Is it because of the new surroundings, the unfriendly classmates? Or probably it's due to the fact that we suddenly had to be in the short course, and the school practicum was faster than we expected? I had no idea.. 

All I know that I'm in a rush semester and it marks that another stressful semester would be chasing me.. On a positive thoughts, I would probably graduate this year, finishing all 6 semesters that was expected to be completed only by the end of this year..  Graduating few months earlier ain't a bad idea after all, isn't it? 😩

Oh well, I hope my spirit is back as soon as possible.. It's tiring to feel sleepy all day, being unmotivated and all sorts of negative vibes.. Dear self, please be more productive since your journey on this year ain't getting easier.. Sincerely, yourself..πŸ’•

Chapter 16: Drapetomania

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Chapter 15 : Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita..?

Tuesday, January 10, 2017


Chapter 14: 2017 To-do List..!

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Chapter 13: Closing Chapter 2016

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Assalammualaikum.. Since this would be the last entry of the year, it's the best for me to sum up everything, burying every memories that I had been going through this year.. There were lots of bittersweet moment but on thing for sure, they developed a better version of mine.. πŸ’ͺ
  • Blogging
I had been abandoning this beloved blog for years, and I didn't think that my action of making a total makeover, hiding the fact that it used to have the bitter memories, could make my spirit goes to this level.. And now, I just don't want to stop writing.. Well, not for now.. Getting to make some new blogging friends and knowing that I had some readers just lighten up the spirit.. I love you guys.. *sending the virtual hugs*

  • Baby steps to a healthy lifestyle
Well, as some of you know, I'm on the weight lose journey but I couldn't hold my desire sometimes.. You could never say no to your mom's cook so it's been a huge challenge for me! Dear self, you had done your best.. πŸ˜‡

  • My Best Sister's Marriage

Being the last child of the family, I hardly had a quality time with my siblings except for Ateh, the one whom had always been my back bone, supporting her one and only younger sister in whatever I'm doing.. She's the one whom had been listening all of my complaints about life and her house is my escapism from everyone.. I'm glad that she ended her single life and I couldn't be more happy for her.. Oh well,  I couldn't say no to a guy whom would bring his future sister in law (at that moment) to most of their dates, treating her like his own sister, could you? Psst, I even managed to get pocket money from him, few hours after their wedding ceremony.. Isn't he's so cool? πŸ˜†
  • 1st birthday surprise!
To be frank, this was my first birthday surprise in my life and I was totally shocked when two of my favourite buddy, Ecah and Wani (haven't had the chance to introduce them yet) planned for this.. It was actually double surprise as they had been planning together but since Wani's birthday was only few days after mine and it was going to be a mid-sem break for us, Ecah ended up buying 2 slices of cake.. In the end, double surprise for us.. 😍

  • Double trouble with housemates 
It's been two years since we met and lived together.. I'm glad to be among them as they totally accept me for who I am.. This year had been a huge challenge for us since one of us became the "ragut" victim and few days later, a burglar (the same person whom had "ragut") broke into our house and managed to get one laptop.. What made it extra bitter, the owner of the laptop, which happened to be my roommate and two others were actually face to face with the burglar as they met right in front of the house door.. But they couldn't think right as he said, "Pergi tengok kawan korang kat atas, apa dah jadi dekat dia," and they just immediately rushed inside, worrying about what had happened to the "kawan".. As the matter fact, he actually lied and no one was at home atm, so he managed to go out safely without getting caught! 

  • Real mystical, ghost experience
Yup! This is the year where I faced lots of mystical incidents, disturbance of the entities in my rented house till we had to call an ustaz for help. The traumatic incident didn't end there as if you had read this post, I had stated that we had to end our biggest project due to an unexpected incident and for everyone's safety. It was actually because we made our performance at Muzium Negara and some of the team was possessed by the entities.. It would be a long story but maybe I would tell you the whole story sooner or later.. 

2016, you had been a challenging year but, thank you for every experience and the memories that you had granted to me.. Goodbye 2016, and we shall not meet again.. Welcome 2017! Please come in and could you throw the glitters ✨and rainbow🌈 for me, please..? πŸ’—
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