Chapter 101: Will it...?

Sunday, March 24, 2019

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Been looking for something, 
But could it ever be found..?
Preserving everything,
But how much longer would it stay...?

Could this be a waste..?
Would it be a worth...?
How much longer could this be bare?

The energy is draining...
but then...

Will it be okay to give up ...?
Will it be okay if everything ended?
Will it be okay if it is stranded..?
Will it...?

written by;
Flavnesz @ Chapters

Chapter 100: No, I'm Not Pregnant...!

Sunday, March 3, 2019


Have you ever stressed out thinking about your menstruation cycle...? Okay that sounds awkward but yeah, I can't think of any specific or proper words for this thing so let's just be straight forward.. My hormone might be in mess since I missed my period for 3 months and I was in panic, waiting for it to appear.. 

The first month of absent..? I could still chill around since it was normal for me to skip a month.
The second month, I was slightly worry but still able to remain calm....
But, on the third month, my mind was in total mess..!

"Am I pregnant..? But, I can't be... It's impossible...! Okay calm down... It should be fine.. Okay, open google now...!"

Google: Reasons of Late Period for Unmarried Adult

Possible reasons: Stress, Gained Weight

"Okay, I should not stressed out... I did gained weight, so it's a sign I should back to track..."
Nope, it didn't ease me and guess what..? I was too afraid that I ended up eating lots of pineapple, hoping for the bleed (yes I am that naive girl)... 

I was so worried that I decided to go for a check-up and I had to inform my friends and my sisters, just in case I'm late for the class and they started to act;

My friends: No, you can't be pregnant before me...!
Ateh: 3 bulan...? Jangan cakap.. 

And I immediately cut her..

Still in naive mode, during the check-up, the doctor asked me to do the pregnancy test and with a panic face, I kept telling her that I'm not even married yet. She burst into laughter; calming me by saying it was part of the procedure.. I could only compose myself again when the result was out and it appeared as "Negative". 

Out of the joy, I immediately snapped the picture with a caption: Sorry guys, no anak buah yet...😂

Anyways, the doctor just gave me some hormone pills and Alhamdulillah, the long waits ended...! Well, just writing this as a reminder for myself for not being panic or at least being naive if the similar things ever happen again.. 

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