Chapter 68: Depression Leads to Suicide..!

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Assalammualaikum.. 

jonghyun death


I do remember the first time I saw him in "Hello Baby- Shinee", he had been showing his bright-forceful side and since then, I'd been all over him.. As the matter of fact, I became a fan of the group instantly.. Their music had been pleasing my teenage soul and somehow, as the time past by, various new groups appear and I'm just too busy to keep update on kpop industry and just focus on their drama instead.. That's how my interest on them were slowly forgotten and I stopped bothering on their music industry.. 

Today, I crossed into a news claiming that he's dead due to suicide, and his last death note showing how depressed he had been, it blows out my mind and burst off my heart.. I immediately remember how I had been loving his personality, how witty and wonderful he had been, my tears couldn't stop themselves from running down.. 

The song above was written by him and seeing the lyrics, it might be his message to everyone and even the singer thinks the same thing.. Meanwhile, his final instagram post had been a signal that he's crying for help, posting a screenshot of sad lyrics and I believe he had been signaling in every ways silently but nobody ever noticed it.. This is when I realize, "the person whom had the brightest life in action, leads the loneliest life in silence".. 

Dearest everyone, please play your roles (as family, friends, etc) with the people around you..Be more concerning with them, take note on the changes or any messages that they had been sending indirectly.. There must be a reason in every messages that they had been spreading, and we couldn't deny, depression is a hidden disease which could lead to death, in our realization or not.. 💔

19 comments

  1. Not into K-pop so much and bila scrolling through fb gambar dia ni muncul I keep thinking "who is this guy", but as I know, depression is dangerous

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    1. I'm not into k-pop anymore but since I used to be into them and his group was one of my jam, I would say he's amazing in many ways.. But oh well, nobody expected to be in such depression when he was all bubbly on the outside.. So yeah..

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  2. So Sad sobs..sobss.sobs. Mrs. A pun minat Shinee juga.
    Tapi kat Korea statistic suicide memang tinggi.

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    1. Lagu diorg best kan Mrs.A.. Yup.. Suicide mmg tinggi kat sana sebab most of them atheist and artist sana basically is an indirect slave, devoting their life untuk fans so they led a lonely life..

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  3. Huh.... sad to hear this news...

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    1. I'm wondering how pressured he had been till he chose this way..

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  4. shinee was my very first favorite since high school. this is too sad and i can't believe that this is happening.

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    1. Same here ray.. I'm still in denial, to be honest..

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  5. I was so shocked about this news. But i was so true that the suicide stat in korea among the highest. Depression is kind of silent killer.

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    1. It was the highest as they don't bother about depression at all... Plus, they're being a slave in their own country as everything is like the survival game..

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  6. I'm a casual fan of SHINee so it was a surprise to read about his passing when I just came back from work. Granted, I did not cry when I read about the news but I know, deep down in my heart, I am affected too by his passing.

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    1. I cried, maybe because it hurts to know he killed himself while he was all bubbly on the camera.. But then after doing some research on his personal life, and I'm like, okay... No wonder he's being depressed.. huu

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  7. Setuju sangat.. Kemurungan memang sangat bahaya.. Kadang-kadang kita tak perasan tapi ada je merwka yang kemurungan di sekeliling kita.. Terkejut juga baca pasal kematian beliau..

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  8. deppression semua org akan rasa. tapi kenbe pandai control. jgn biarkan ia menyelubungi hidup kita dan kawal diri kita.

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  9. I immediately remembered Chester Bennington's death after I read about Jonghyun. Both suffered from depression and decided to take their own life. Thing is, they both had loving family by their side so I figured, depression is way dangerous than what I can imagine. They were loved, they knew it but they still decided to do it. Hopefully it'll not happen to the person who are dear to us.

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    1. They were loved but our sicked society made them in pain... Let's just hope so...

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