Chapter 86: Love [#7seriesofwriting]

Sunday, May 13, 2018

chapters by flavnesz
credits: grafolio
"I tried to put this in words... In a secretive way... But those memories were too good, that I hate for it to be a secret..."

"Why don't you tell this directly..?"
"Why can't I do it indirectly..?"

"You need to express it.. It's now or nothing... Signal him something...! Come on...!"
"But HOW..?! What if he's too blind to see it..? Or.. What if I'm just too late..?!"

"Or... What if he's reading this now..? Shouldn't you just write this..?"
"Even if he's reading this now, would it change anything..?"

"Don't you love him..?"
"How do I define that word in the first place..?"

"Okay.. Let's start with this... Do you even like him from the start...?"
"No... I disliked him at the first glance.. Those tiny eyes and serious expression doesn't charmed me at all but my friend thought he was attractive.."

"And now...?"
"What do you mean by now..? It's been months since the last time I met him.."

"Okay, faulty question.. And then..?"
"Can't you just stop playing around..?!"

"Okay... I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of him, although it's been months since things ended.. I kept thinking how charismatic he was whenever he's doing his duty.. Such a flaming charisma.. However, he had a cheeky smile and attitude which I only realized after we got to communicate to each other.Those eyes which annoyed me at first, is something that I admired the most now..  There are times he would seek for my help and I could never say no to him, and there are times where I felt like he purposely did the thing just to trouble me but somehow, I'm delighted to do the work for him.. And out of my realization, I kept looking for him in silence throughout the end of my days..."

"Well.. It ended.. Your only source of happiness had ended.."
"Umm.. Not really.."

"Well, we followed each other on soc-med and seeing his name is enough to make my day.. Just enough to make me smile for the whole day.."

"Doesn't that just define what you've been feelings..?"

"Love.. Back to your question.. How do I define love...? The answer is this feeling of yours is something we called love.. He made your day in silence, and you just can't stop thinking of him.."

"What if.. He's just a crush..? Maybe I just admired him.. That's all.."

"How long has it been since the last time you met him..?"
"8 months"

"If he's just a crush, shouldn't it be over now and you should be having a new crush right after the new life started... The thing is, it hasn't over yet and you kept hoping for his presence in silence.. If that's not something that you could call love, then, what is it..?"

written by;
-Flavnesz @ Chapters_ 2.05 a.m.-


  1. I've read somewhere that psychologists say a crush only lasts for 4 months. But when feelings last longer, you are considered to be “In Love”.

    1. there's once a viral quote on that and I did wrote about that once, one the label rants.. haha..

  2. I'm thinking of someone while reading this.. aweee! >_<

    1. Naw.. He must be totally something as he's able to caught your mind.. :3

  3. Is this what you called love? Wondering the same thing too after reading your post and all the comments above.

    I used to have a crush (or I believe it's a crush) on someone for 7 years. Hahaha, but alhamdulillah, I have moved on :D

    1. Well I believe 7 years couldn't be called as crush anymore..? hahaha

  4. Love thiss!!

  5. Complicated but i used to love that kind of feeling when i was in university before. But it only last me about a year before i met another guy. Haha. Cinta budak u. 😅

  6. For me, i might say it is crush. Just don't want to mess with my mind. Put him aside as a crush and he will easily be faded away.

  7. It's been almost 6 years that I haven't had those feelings, I think my love cells are dead hehe

  8. If i'm in your situation right now, I will keep wondering if he has the same feeling towards me too.

    1. yeahhh.. something mutual i would say.. haha