One thing I love about life, is how Allah had organized our life in a meaningful way. It was a bumpy road for me since the middle of degree as I started to be in depression despite I tried my best to live my life to the fullest. Things seemed bothersome to me and I started not to be me.I started to get impatient and things get so wrong when I couldn't voiced out my feelings at all...
The urgency of taking care of others' feelings, the "what if's" wouldn't stop lingering in my mind and slowly, I took the blame on my own. I slowly voiced out my feelings to kak chik and ateh, two of my best sister and thankfully, they do take my feelings as their biggest concern.
That was when Ateh voiced out for me to live alone, stop bothering on others and be independent. It was not an easy decision for me and the search ain't easy as the house that I lived was way too good to let it go. RM230 fully furnished with WIFI, 4 minutes in walking distance to college so why else would I go?
The only trouble that I had was there's no study table and I had to go out if I want a comfy study space, which Sunway Velocity Mall foodcourt was my study port whenever I want to jot down some notes and going there requires me to call the "Grab" and again, it's a waste of money as you know, "Grab" had less promotion compared to "Uber". Yes Grab, I'm complaining on you..!
However, The single basis room was too pricey and the cheap ones were too far from the college and each time I'm comforting myself, "It's okay, you could just use the lrt, and just think that crossing the pedestrian bridge as your exercise" but then here's my kak chik asking, "Rumah tu dekat tak dengan kolej? Mana lagi senang and dekat ? Ape cons dia?"
And the new search began.. I almost gave up and wanted to just close my heart and stay but then again, Allah surely know your feelings the best and He always helps you in a way you could hardly believe. I told myself, "This is it. If I can't find a room by this week, I won't leave.. It would just means I'm meant to be here till the end.."
Just before the day ended, I found an advertisement of rental room within my budget and it's just a few meters futher away but still in the same housing area and I could still walk to my college using another route! I was so eager and the moment I told kak chik and ateh, they're like, "Jangan excited dulu, kitorang yang nak kena dahulukan deposit. Meh gamba bilik semua" and kak chik was like "Mana lagi murah?" while ateh kept backing me up, claiming the room was the standard cheapest price for single basis but thankfully once kak chik saw the room's picture, she responded, "Okay, boleh pindah".
I was totally all over the moon when kak chik gave the green light. It iss not a luxury room with luxury stuff but it's just perfect enough for me. The girl was kind enough to leave her bed and study table behind and she kept asking me, "Awak sure nak meja ni? Kita kutip meja ni orang buang, tapi elok lagi, so kita amik and balut dengan pembalut hadiah je but it's usable." and I eagerly answered, "Nak! I memang nak meja study".
So right now, I'm already in my new room, eager to fill and decorate this little heaven of mine with just something that I need but since my exam is coming in few days, I should wait for awhile. It's just a new journey of mine and somehow, it's just felt so good to be here. I'm feeling alive, well at least, for now and hopefully, till the end of degree.
Hope everything will go well for you ^^
ReplyDeleteThank you Farah..! ❤️
Deletehai awak! situasi kita sama and currently in new houseee! :(
ReplyDeleteEh haiiii.. It's sad to know that you're facing the same problem but how's your new house..? Getting better?
Deleteyeay i have my own study table too and i'm loving it so so much! xx
ReplyDeleteI was inspired by you, Erin..! Too bad I don't have the budget for total makeover.. haha
DeleteMay everything goes well for you anis :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Lya...! ❤️
Deletethe room looks very comfy :) I hope everything will be do good for you, insha Allah :)
ReplyDeleteFatina Mudz
It does a comfy little space for me..! hee.. Amin.. Thanks Fatina.. ❤️
DeleteWhat a cute room T^T hehe good luck on your commitment sister!! :D I'm fighting harder on my study just the way you are... :') Thanks for inspiring me all the way to catch up degree certificate.
ReplyDeleteNaww thank you Hana.. It's good to know I could inspire people up.. All the best with your study, girl.. ❤️
Deletesuch a creative dear. Yup, benda elok dan kita boleh pakai lagi better kita amik and just decorate a little bit. Walla, the table can be a greatest table ever.
ReplyDeleteGood luck for your degree and hope everything will goes well. Insyaallah . <3
Kan.. My sis cakap, jimat selagi boleh, guna selagi elok... Thankfully, the previous girl is creative enough to decorate the table so Anis just kena carik kerusi and susun barang elok2, bagi nampak kemas.. huhu..
DeleteTeringat masa struggle belajar dulu. Semoga urusan awak dipermudahkan ye.
ReplyDeleteAmin.. Thanks awak.. :D
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