Can we rewind back to the start…?

To the days before the silence,
when your voice used to fill me with wisdom…
and when your eyes reflected love in secrecy…

I wish…
things were different.

I wish…
you were still here with me.

I wish…
you were the first person to greet me at the door every single day.

I wish…
you were the one listening to my shiny and stormy stories.

I wish…
you were still the person I turned to
for love…
and for comfort.

If only…
you were still around.
I would know exactly what choice to make,
because in every direction I take,
it’s always about proving how wrong you were…

And in proving how well I handle the mistakes,
there’s you…
smiling in silence,
despite your silence.

6 years without you…
It’s six years of emptiness,
six years of living in uncertainty,
and for six years…
I’ve been missing you continuously.

P/s:- 

It’s not his anniversary…

It’s just… this space has always been about us.

And now, before this little space of mine gets occupied by Ibu,

he deserves a little more of me here.

A little more love…

A little more remembrance…

A little more of the space that was always his.

written by;

-Flavnesz @ Chapters_ 8.52 p.m.-

Assalammualaikum...

Let's take a guess, who has found the desire to write again...? It's me! 😆

Okay, that's lame... 

I thought last year would be the year of my comeback, but here am I, writing again a year after... Only Allah knows how much I've been yearning to write, but I've been trying to remain alive as well, so I chose to just take a step back from writing and focus on carving a straight path for my career... 

As for now, I would like to declare that Alhamdulillah, I'm getting closer to achieve my current career development goals! It took me almost three years; plenty of failures, filled with tears and of course, lots of commitment to achieve it... *patting myself*

*pause, sorting my mind as there's too many to share...*

Okay, since there's abundance of memorable events to be dumped here,  let's take a baby step to climb up the stairs, shall we? I would just keep myself rambling for awhile, just to get the momentum again and we shall tango from there. As for now, I think I should stop here... Till then, see ya! 

If only with writing, I can keep my sanity sane, I should keep writing then!