Futuromic Lancar Ricoh GR IV di Malaysia
3 days ago
Assalammualaikum...
More than a year of not writing, and hey, I'm surviving! Haha...
I am still here, most of the time wanting to write, eager to rant but I had been trying to cope with lots of thing throughout the year. I had been missing this space of mine, and today the thought of forcing myself to write the summary as well as the closure of the year, and that's why I'm here!
So, where should I start?
JANUARY - MARCH 2021
I started this year with something new, stepping into the new world of having a career. It was fun at first, filled with spirit and what made it the sweetest journey was the friendship that I could enjoy momentarily. Working with young, determined colleagues; nothing stops us from dreaming big. At least that was what we thought... But hey, Allah knows the best. We hit the rock bottom, leaving the spirit and left everything behind... One thing that's left was the sweetest memory called friendship that did not exist anymore.... Anyways, still, praying the best for them... 💖
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| A selfie with the person that made my life was more than anything when I was still working there... 💞 |
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| I am praying for everyone and as well for those who are not in the picture.. Thank you for the best memories that we had created together...💕 |
APRIL - MAY 2021
I decided to stepped out from the company and just about to start fresh when I was diagnose of positive COVID-19 on the very first day of work. What made it horrifying for me was the fact that I am already at stage 4 by that time and there were too many "what if..." playing in my mind. But alhamdulillah, I forced myself to remain positive, knowing that my family were praying hard for me was something that I am truly grateful. Ever since then, I started to be more concern of my health.. Well, congratulations dear self... We made it!
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| Putting this here because this was the only outside food that I received while I had admitted for more than 10 days... Thank you Kak Wul for willing to treat me just because I'm craving for it! Love ya till death! |
MAY - DEC 2021
I am officially a lady with a stable career!!! Nothing is more satisfying for me other than striking a job in the middle of this horrid pandemic. I'm pretty sure I used to rant on how I'm not gonna teach anymore, the reason made me feel like teaching was not for me but hey, I could only plan while Allah is the best planner of all... So yup, I am currently teaching at an English Centre which is not the typical teacher but I shall tell you about this more on my future posts. Let's just hope I won't go missing again... haha!
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| The first kid that made me feel, "yes, I want to work here, to teach her!"😍 |
THE CLOSURE
Till then,
Assalammualaikum...
It's 4.20 am and here I am, realizing that I still have a blog that I had abandoned for quite something and thinking, "Hey! It's been a while... Let's write on you something!"
But then, here am I, wondering what should I write or how shall I start because to be frank, there's not much happening in my life besides being jobless, being an owl till Ibu getting so mad at me as she could barely see me on daylight and also, I believe I am gaining so much of weight till Ibu can't stop babbling at me, pushing me to go on a diet but at the same time, she got worried whenever she didn't see me having any meal for the day, forcing me to forget my diet and keep eating... So yeah, that's the summary of my life so far... 😂
There's actually two working position queuing for me; one to be the mentor of Cosmotots (Yeah, I might be teaching, guys!) and another one is a questionable position offered by MARA to the former students of KPTM. However, they were put on hold as we could not travel overdue to PKPB so yeah, I blame the virus for making me jobless!
However, I believe Allah holds the best not only for me but also for everyone else. Some of you might face the same struggle while some may even be facing the worse so I wish you nothing but to stay safe and chin up in whatever you're going through... I guess that is all for me, as another sign I am coming back (hopefully) and till then, have a blast day everyone... 💞
Assalammualaikum...
*healing a deep breath*
It's awkward for me to write, especially after months of letting this space bare. I missed writing a lot; missing to blog walking even more but there's basically nothing for me to write... There were plenty of stuffs happened; been in lock down and struggled doing nothing, completed my internship but hell I didn't know if it should be considered as a success since I had been procrastinating a lot as well.
These past few months had been a misery for me, really. May was the month of my birth and I would write a dedication post for myself every single year but I decided to not write any this year... I had been meaning to write for the festive of Syawal as well but ended up not writing any; simply because I didn't celebrate any this year. Everyday was the same; dull day for me... No baju raya, only shirts and pants for me please.
It is my first year of everything without my dad so the passion was just not there anymore. We had been missing him even more lately and every single thing reminded us of him. I know my previous entry had been all about him but what shall I do when it is so hard for us to bear with it? Well, at least the tears were no longer there and the memories were all we had.
Anyways, I will try my best to keep writing sooner or later and hopefully, this entry would be the benchmark for me to start writing back. Till then, I shall see you again and I guess it is never too late for me to wish you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.😊
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Tatkala malam menyepi...
Hanya aku disini, tidak bermimpi...
Menantikan cahaya, berpaksikan bumi...
Menyanyikan lagu, menghiburkan hati...
Kata sang hati, aku tidak sendiri...
Biarkan ia pergi..
Kerana dia kan tetap disini...
Kubisikkan pada bulan...
Temanilah hati yang kelam..
Bisikku pada bintang..
Hiburkanlah hari yang mendatang...
Kerana hanya padamu bulan...
Aku sandarkan harapan...
Dan padamu bintang...
Aku temui cahaya kehidupan..
written by;
-Flavnesz @ Chapters_ 4.17 a.m.-
Assalammualaikum....
Is it just me or time surely past by so fast? 4 months 10 days without you., welp, it's been quite rocky road for us, pa... Ibu will officially be free from her "iddah" and her long waiting moment would finally be over.. She had been missing you a lot and pretty sure she is looking forward to "meet" you tomorrow.
Pa, everyone is moving forward and without you besides us, it's an awkward journey for all of us... Everyone missed you badly and we had beenpretending as if we're strong enough but to be frank, we're crying in our silence... Even Qaid missed you so much by claiming that the house felt empty without you...
Pa... I started my internship but I literally choked down on my way to work since it felt so weird to start my new phase of life without you... I truly wish I could still rant with you,to see that proud face of yours seeing me started to drive by myself, managing my life without depending on anyone anymore... Yup, your final daughter is officially a grown up now...
Pa, there's nothing more that I want in this life besides making you proud of me... And for that, I would not give up in this journey and this unstoppable of missing you feeling would be my spirit booster for life... Thank you for being my strength and for becoming the reason for me to success... You was and you are still the reason of my everything.. Love you Pa...
"Papa tau perjalanan kau nis... Fokus... Teruskan buat papa bangga dengan kau." - Ateh.
Assalammualaikum...
To be frank, I am a newbie of Netflix and so I'm not pretty sure on how to start this post but I just know I want to write this since I really had nothing to do. Anyways, let's just jump into the review, shall we?
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Synopsis: A woman living in 1890s Colonial-era Malacca receives a proposal to become the ghost bride of a a wealthy family's recently-deceased son. -IMDB
Review: If I should describe this series in one word, I would have to say, there is no exact word for me to describe this drama. In fact, I am still debating with myself if I do really love this series or not since there are certain thing that I love and there's plenty of things that made me feel "meh".
Likes
- Kuang Tian
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The only cast that manage to grab my attention in this series is Kuang Tian whom hold the role of Lim Tian Ching or shall I introduce you as "the ghost"? My oh my, he really had the best facial expression and I am always excited each time he appeared.. Hence, I am declaring that he's my new guy crush! #sorrynotsosorry.
- If you're a fan of Kebaya Nyonya, you will definitely fall in love with the main actresses choice of Kebaya.. They're such an eye candy and in fact, this series is filled with stunning outfits in most of the scene and even my favourite ghost looks so good in his costume!
Dislikes
- This may sound harsh but to be frank, this series is way below my expectation. They had a good story-line but it is just too draggy and I think it would be better if this is just a movie instead of making it into a series and idk, I just don't really favor this.
Self-Rating: ★★★☆☆
Assalammualaikum...
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Little sweet little girl,
Dreaming of a big world,
She shall twirl and swirl,
Wishing upon the magical.
Little sweet little girl,
Hoping through and shining through,
Of the gaze and the grace,
Of the glaze and the embrace.
Little sweet little girl,
With a swirl and twirl,
Smiling to the world,
Engraving as the new paper girl.
That new paper girl,
Was once the little sweet little girl,
She is shining through,
Oh, but it is too good to be true...
written by;
-Flavnesz @ Chapters_ 10.32 a.m.-
Assalammualaikum...
Been wanting to write but there's a mess in this mind as if, should I or shouldn't I..? It's been almost a month since we entered new year and I haven't done any of my ritual post of 2019 reflections or summing out the year because you know, 2019 was a year of mess for me... Sure thing, there are plenty of wonderful stuffs but if I shall remark my 2019 in whole, I would say, it's a year of my downfall... I literally forgot every single wonderful journey that had occurred before losing my dad because literally, my life without him is a major impact and hence, I barely remember anything wonderful anymore... But still, been debating on this so here it is, my dedication post for those whom had been coloring my life throughout the year...
1. Them....
Do I really need to introduce them again because, it's been awhile.. haha... I never thought they would be the one whom ended up being stuck with me throughout the end because seriously, we were friends in diploma, became strangers at the middle of the degree and here we are, back at it again... While I literally thought no one really cares, no one really would be with me when I'm in the mess, to my even of more surprise, they were there... When I came back from the graveyard the day my dad passed away, my sister in law approached and told me that my friends were here and had been waiting for me; I swear to Allah, I expected no one and hence, my heart rushed so fast as I was too eager to know who and the moment my eyes laid on them, waiting inside my room, I was totally overwhelmed... These angels... Oh God.. I have no exact words to describe them because I swear, they are literally the ones whom made me realized that true friendship still exists...
2. Sarah
This girl, is the another magical person in my life, really, she is... It's been a wonder how I got attached to her when I could say, our start were not as good as I expected to be but somehow, she is the person that I had been depending on till right now. I really love disturbing her whenever I could and somehow, we just turn to each other whenever we need someone to talk... She may be a lil' bit strict sometimes, a little bossy too at times which she admitted btw, and she really don't care on how people judged her because she is truly being herself but this person, had been the pillar of my strength... Almost every time I broke into pieces, especially reminiscing my late dad, this person right here would reply my status just to boost up my spirit by saying I could really face the challenge.. Oh, the latest thing that she had been doing as a sweetheart is by helping me to find the place for my internship and she actually did share the link of empty vacancy as much as she could for me... I didn't know what did I do to deserve her in my life but literally, I'm so grateful for having her as part of my life...
3. The Flavious
Shall I introduce to the origins of "Flav" and how I became Flavnesz? haha... Well, maybe I should in the next post but at least you got the gist, right...? These was one of the days when I literally enjoyed myself, forgetting about my sadness temporarily before the high fever struts in and killed the joy...Well, gonna write more about them in the next post.. 😉
4. Madam Ezzan & Anios
These two person were the bliss of my FYP journey and I swear without them, I would not be able to complete my FYP... One of the last conversation that I had with my late dad was how grateful I was to have her as my FYP supervisor and oh God, I still am.. She was the one whom guided me from the start till the end, the one whom never tested any of us with any rough journey as she was so chill and relax. While almost everyone in the class had a hectic life coping with their supervisors, me and Anios remained calmed and literally took our best sweet time and if any of my juniors been reading this, Madam Ezzan is the best! And Anios had been the sweetest partner in crime because we really had a good collab, helping each other and she really ease my hectic FYP life. I could never imagine my FYP result without the help of these duo.
4. Anis Enne Nuramira
Her hectic life caused her for not being with me all the time but she's been with me for years... She was not able to present herself the day I broke myself but she managed to make a surprise visit and fixed everything up... We may barely be with each other and may not even text each other but I just know that our thought and prayers would always tally together...
5. Sweethearts
I had to insert this because apparently it was the final year of memories with him... Well, I put this on the last stage on purpose, because I know I would be in the sea of tears.. My last memory with him was pleasant, and everything was the sweetest moment.. I managed to experienced almost everything that I had been yearning to and for that, thank you Allah for allowing me to feel his love towards the end... Well, I am still losing control over my life and it is so hard to keep my mind straight when I had been depended my life upon him so much, I am still unable to make decisions, I am not sure if it is the right decision and I am so afraid of the outcome but still, I had to be strong for the person next to him and all that I could wish right now is for Allah to allow me to serve her at my best...
Despite of losing one of the unconditional love, I had plenty in 2019 and for that, I thank you Allah for allowing me to be in these position, to feel the love and to love them as well... I would keep them forever in my heart and Papa, I had been keeping you in my soul... Have a good rest and I love you... Al-Fatihah..
Assalammualaikum...
Is it still valid for me to wish all of you Happy New Year? Okay, I know that it's too late since we're already on the second week but it would be so awkward if I didn't do so. I had been wanting to update but I was truly occupied. Officially settled my FYP only on the 31st of December, followed by the hectic 100 days Tahlil of my late father on 4th and then, right now, I am still in the misery of getting a place for an internship which supposedly for me to start on next week, Monday but, it's okay... I could start a bit late but I truly hope I could get a place where could deliver my best and you know, be me...
Well, to be frank, there is company that is in my mind but I would only gets the answer by next week and I wouldn't deny myself that I really, really want to be there... There are plenty of random stuff that had been lingering on my mind and I won't reveal much till this place confirmed my application but just a little hint;
I am actually all excited thinking about that place as it's connected to children matter, and you guys know how I'm totally attached to my ex-students, and the thought to be able to work in an environment involving kids without being attached to the formal lesson plan, the whole idea of that just made my heart all fluttering and yes, I had been telling my close friends and my sisters that I really want to be there and all they had been saying was; "Buat solat hajat hari-hari..."
Dear heart, calm down... Allah knows the best and if it is meant to be, you will be.... Dear 2019, thank you, for all the lesson and you will never be forgotten as you hold the most important event in my life, the moment I was not prepared of but still, thank you.... 2020, I will not hope for a change in anything anymore because I'm too afraid if I wished it wrongly once again but please, guide me to become the best version in me, life wise and hopefully, a stability in the career wise.
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