Chapter 12: Expressing Love Ain't Easy...

December 28, 2016


"Do you love me..?"
"Why are you asking that..?"
"Why don't you answer me? You didn't love me?"
"I do love you.."
"Now I doubt it.." 

Chapter 11: Soul mate

December 24, 2016


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Featured Chapters: Science Stream vs. Arts Stream [Special for PT3 students]

December 18, 2016



Assalammualaikum.. As I was in the blog-walking mode, I noticed that most of them are only 15 and yes, they are nervous thinking of their big day .. And I couldn't help but to notice that most of them are still miserable thinking of which route they should choose, either the famous science stream or the so-so art stream.. Why did I say famous or so-so?

Chapter 10:Am I happy?

December 17, 2016

Sometimes, I wonder... 
Am I happy with my life?
When I was a kid, I used to life in my own imagination..
Where happiness is living around while sadness doesn't exist in the dictionary...
Where success could be achieved easily without the existence of effort.. 
Where everything goes right and wrong just vanished from the world..
Where Prince Charming appears and fairy tales are real.. 
Where appearance is not a matter to anyone and beauty applies to everyone..
Where everyone stays and no one is leaving...

Beauty Review: My Skin Saviour - Pink by Pure Beauty

December 14, 2016

Assalammualaikum.. It's every girls' dream to have a smooth and flawless skin, right? I wouldn't deny, I'm one of those whom wished those stuff but a dream would only left as a dream if there's no effort.. Lately, I've been stumbled with some blogs whom giving some tips regarding beauty stuff and as I am into currently into those topics, I would immediately read it (as the matter of fact, I read almost entry that appeared on my reading list).. One of them is Syaza's skincare tips and she suggested me to share my daily skincare.. I was thinking, why not, kan?


Chapter 9: The Dress

December 11, 2016

Assalammualaikum.. To those whom had read the information tag, you may know that I'm actually on a weight loss journey.. It was my own desire to be on this route and luckily, I'm surrounded with positive vibes and supportive friends.. However, I always lost the battle with my own lust over food and I always need a timeline for me to accomplish and slowly achieve my goals.. I'll be updating my progress as a reminder for myself and hence, stopping myself from giving up or lose from the track.. 

Chapter 8: Waiting Over the Rainbow

December 10, 2016


Chapter 7: Size vs. Friendship

December 7, 2016

Assalammualaikum... 

Being a big size girl is not an option.. I believe, no one asked for it.. It's just a fate that Allah had granted to certain people but humans tend to forget that.. Well, not everyone would but trust me, there are lots of judgemental people whom looking down at us.. Some may accept fat people as if nothing wrong with it but some would be cynical .. And that's what I've been going through for years...

When you're a kid, the term 'gemuk' would always hurtful enough but you wouldn't care.. Your life is all about having fun and eat delicious food but as the time past by, it would be hard for you to hear the word but actually people is insulting you silently... Well, I used to found a written doodle on one of the school table , insulting me as it's written, "(......) Razanah besar macam (.....)"


Chapter 6: Too Much Information Tag!

December 6, 2016

Assalammualaikum.. Since I've mistakenly deleted most of my entries, especially the drafts, I had to re-write this question tag.. Well, it has 50 questions for me to answer which would be an ideal way for you to know me better (probably)..? Thanks Liyana for coming out with such interesting tags..


[Edited Chapters] Self-positive When I was Sad

Assalammualaikum... Friendly reminder, this post was written for a GA that I joined but since I guess it's part of life, I edited it into a normal post.. ^^

Before TESL, I used to be in the relationship with accounting.. It was my father's dream to see me holding a scroll in ACCA and he felt that it was the best career for me.. I gave it a try but end up crying as it was a huge burden for me.. I failed some test miserably and my father kept pushing me by provoking me.. Yes, provocation always works for me as I always tried my best to prove that the statement is wrong but not at that particular moment.. I had to face break up and I lost the person whom had always been my backbone at the same year.. I tried to gain my strength, thinking of my dad but I failed.. 

Thinking of giving up and pursuing my desirable interest, my dad exploded into anger and it was the worst moment.. He treated me like his own enemy, living under the same roof but act like a stranger.. During the broken moment, my ateh became my backbone and supported me to pursue my dreams.. When it was the time for me to leave the house and register myself at college, he didn't want to send me off.. When I grabbed his hands for blessings, he just said, " pergilah.. karang lambat.." and my mom scolded him by saying, " awak hantar anak orang pegi belajar, awak sanggup pegi kelantan la, mana-mana hantar anak buah awak sambung belajar tapi anak bongsu awak sendiri awak buat macam ni.." 

Hearing that, I cried and it didn't change anything..My mom and ateh helped me on that day and before they left, they said " Duduk sini elok-elok, ingat kenapa kau dekat sini.. Buktikan kat papa yang this is the right thing to do..  "

As the time past by, after getting my first result, Alhamdulillah my dad is back to my arm.. It was awkward for us during the first semester but after I proved to him that I'm serious with this new life, he finally gave his blessings to me .. In fact, our relationship become better that we used to had before the big argument... From that remarkable moment, each time I'm sad with something, I always told myself, 
" Razanah Anis, kau pernah hadap yang lagi teruk dari ni.. Nothing is worse than losing papa in your arm so tempuh la semua ni demi papa.. Kalau sebelum nie kau boleh kuatkan diri lawan papa, takkan benda kecik pun nak sedih? La Tahzan Innallaha Ma'ana.. Allah always knows the best and every there's always a rainbow after a rain.. So be strong and believe that the best is coming..."
P/s: I have to admit that for now, my dad is the reason of my everything, so everything that I'm doing is only for him.. Only by thinking of him could make me stronger...

Chapter 5: Raining Hearts


Assalammualaikum.. I'm having a mixed feeling right now..! Most of my latest entries were gone..Q_Q Tu la tangan gatal lagi nak manage labels.. Tanpa sedar dah delete hampir semua entry, so I need to rewrite my diet journey from scratch..:/  Despite that, guess this is the  sign that I really need to move on from the past since most of my old memories which had been kept in the drafts are gone.. No more entries of old love, goodbye bitter memories, it's all about the future now *deep breaths and positivekan diri*... But still, my " Too Many Question Tags" drafts is gone too!*sighs* There's no words that I could use describe my feelings right now.. Hopefully tomorrow will be okay.. Dear Chapters, please be nice to me.. Sincerely, your one and only author...

Chapter 4: Semester 4 of TESL

December 4, 2016


Assalammualaikum.. The previous post reminds me of how tearful my life had been before the semester ended.. From the first day of being a teslian student, I had to admit, everyone was eager to enter semester four. Why? Because that is when we could be an actor/actress and at the same time, boost the popularity in college. Drama production seems a pleasure for the juniors but only the seniors knew that actually it was another subject that could be called as hell.. Yes..! We need to plan a theater of our own and construct it from bare, starting from the scripts, sponsorships, locations, marketing, crews, props and to make it work, we need to cope with more than 50 people under a production..


Chapter 3: TESL @ KUPTM / KPTM KL

November 24, 2016

Chapter 2: Reincarnation


Guess the hibernating season had over for me.. Time for me to make this sem break a bit reproductive. I had to say, it's hard for me to make this move.. Changing ain't easy but without a trial, there's no way people to change, right? Even the gaseous nebula had to collapse in order to give birth to a star.. So, here i am.. Collapsing and crumbling every bitter memories in here but no worries, I am not destructing it.. This is just your birth, CHAPTERS... 

Chapter 1: Hiraeth

November 22, 2016


A perfect quote to explain my feeling to this blog right now... However, I would be back and blog construction is in progress for a total comeback.. :D

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