Chapter 12: Expressing Love Ain't Easy...

December 28, 2016


"Do you love me..?"
"Why are you asking that..?"
"Why don't you answer me? You didn't love me?"
"I do love you.."
"Now I doubt it.." 

Assalammualaikum.. Saying "I love you" could mean everything or nothing, on my point of view.. Oh well, I could just say that phrase to anyone but could really that phrase means anything to me..? Uhh.. Sometimes.. Depends on how I feel or how easy the words could be spilt from my mouth.. Okay, this might sounds harsh, but IF it comes out too easily from my mouth, I would say it might mean that I just love you as a normal person, not someone that are really meaningful to my life..  Actually, this post is inspired from Hanis Amanina, and here I am, sharing with you about my ways..
To be frank, I'm not the type whom would express my love easily.. " I love you" is the hardest phrase for me to say to someone that I love.. It's either I would hesitate to answer or I would distract the person to other question before answering it and sometimes I just keep it to myself.. 
You might think, this only apply to someone special.. Well, here's the fact.. I couldn't express them to my family too..! My siblings called me "kebal", simply because I'm the hardest to deal with and I don't kiss them unless during the eid.. Even during the forgiving session, they would cry loads while saying the words and I would only be saying it, without any single tears.. 😥

It's just recently that I "accidentally" kissed my sister which I thought she was my sister in law ( my SIL is the type whom would kiss me everytime we met so I have no problem to kiss her), and she just let me to kiss her cheeks, but in the end she looked at me blankly.. In fact, my parents and Along whom were there became speechless too..! All I could say "Lah, Kakak ke.. Anis ingat kak Lin!", and everyone laughed at me.. I blushed and ran upstairs, to my room.. 😂

As expressing love was hard for me, How would I let people know that I love them? I prefer to show them by my gesture and spending some time with them.. Well, every act of kindness and everything that you do for a person could be considered as love gesture but somehow, people just don't understand you.. To be honest, you could hardly understand the gestures but, you could feel it as everything that the person do, comforts you and made your day.. 💕
Love is not meant to be seen or say after all, it's meant to be feel.. ❤

22 comments

  1. I'm really hard to express my feels through words too. I hope no one misunderstand me ._.

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  2. i guess we have same character except i don't like peoples touching me in term of affection. hahahahha :D

    so expressing love in my way just by doing kindness maybe? :)

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    1. Oh well, I don't mind affections especially from my family and friends but for me to showing it, it's hardly gonna to happen..

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  3. "Action speaks louder than words". Biasa kita dengar benda ni kan. Kalau bagi siqah, cinta memerlukan both action dan words. Kalau action je kadangkala orang tak faham juga. Atau maybe dia rasa cuma tak pasti selagi tak cakap. Hii :)

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    1. I agree with this.. But as for me, we could fake the words but not actions.. :D

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  4. Agree with Siqah as well. :) For me, actions come with responsibilities either with and without love.

    I am affectionate to my parents. I feel a bit awkward to say but I love kissing them hahaha

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    1. hahaha.. Oh well, I could hardly kissing them.. Hahaha.. I tried but Idk, it's just hard for me..

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  5. Hmmm, kita sejenis orang yang direct je cakap sayang kat seseorang mcm mak or anak buah or sesiapalah yang kita betul-betul sayang. Tapi hanya untuk yang kita sayanglah, kehkehkeh....

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    1. Hahaha.. Ok la senang nak cakap direct.. I guess I'm inherited this from my dad... Spesis ego acah cool tapi hati berbunga.. haha

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  6. you're sooo me.
    I'm the type who believe that action speaks louder than words so I express my love in form of action.

    on a side note, I called bullshit on 'I love you' or 'bestfriend forever xoxo'.

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    1. IKR!!!!
      Ok you're making me excited now.. I totally hate saying 'I love you" and "bff forever doesn't exist in my dictionary.. Not after people come and go.. XD

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  7. express your love to your loved one while he/she is still alive.

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    1. Expressing.. It's just not by words, abam kie.. :D

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  8. I totally can relate. It is so so hard to say 'I love you' to my family as they would say "buang tebiat ke?" instead. But since it's the phrase I really want to say to them and don't want to regret later if it's too late, I now learn to say those beautiful words to them :) it's embarrassing, yes, but I know it made them happy, and I am happy!

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    1. Kan, their response tu blur je.. Haha.. Oh well, I tried to say those words but idk.. But they definitely understand their daughter better.. XD

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  9. I feel youuuuu. I believe in showing love as well. Seen too many saying love you too easy but doesnt have the wits to play the part.

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    1. exactly! it's an easy words without meaning to confess for some people..

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  10. same as me TTT most of the people i know think im a cold person as i dont really know how to give reactions, express love and such. i really would like to get closer with them but it's just my socializing problems. most of the time i'd be like a wallflower. same goes as with my fam, i dont really do such things as expressing my love towards them but i still do things that i show how much i care about them behind their back u.u anyway i like your new blog layout!! it's nice

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    1. I totally understand you..! Thank you for loving it.. :3

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  11. "Expressing love was hard for me". Feel you sis just same like me. Hahaha lebih suka bina dinding ego tu tinggi tingi :3

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    1. susahkan bila ego tu mencanak.. haha..

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