Assalammualaikum..

If you had read my Chapter 9, you might know that I used to be on Atkins diet for some period.. However, the problem that I had been facing while doing Atkins was that I could barely hold myself from being strict of avoiding the carbs.. I could resists the rice but I could not stop myself when it comes to kuey teow or pasta and as the matter of fact, there're times where I want to spent my money at the bakeries.. That's when I realized that Atkins is no longer ideal for me..

Luckily, I had another idol in this diet world as one of my sister used to be part of JK1M which was lead by Kevin Zahri, and not suprisingly, it was a huge success for her.. She managed to enjoy her diet and eat her favorite foods at the same time.. That was when I decided to ask for her guidance and thanks to Allah, I'm enjoying it so much..! 

If you're familiar with Kevin Zahri ideas of having a handful of carbs and balancing with other nutrients needed during lunch or dinner, that's how I tried my best to stick with his ideas and came out with the idea of campak-campak cooking and here I am, sharing my campak-campak recipe..😂

Okay I guess it's enough of long introduction and let's jump straight to the recipe, shall we..?

Ingredients A: 

Chicken

**Wish-Bone Italian dressing 

** McCormick Grill Mates Montreal Chicken seasoning 

Ingredients B:

Boiled Pasta 
Olive Oil

Pink Rock-salt 

**Broccoli

**Cherry Tomatoes

**Shredded Button Mushroom

PS:// the ingredients marked ** indicates that it could be replaced with other seasonings /veggies that you want.. 

How to cook..? okay this is awkward.. How should I write the steps..? 😅

1. Mix up all of the Ingredients A in a bowl, just to season the chicken.. You could also season it with only salt and pepper a.k.a whatever you've in the kitchen.. 

2. Heat up your pan and pour in some olive oil..

3. Put in the chicken and grill it for awhile.. 

4. As the chicken is almost cooked fully, fill up the pan with broccoli and button mushroom.. 

5. Add in a bit of water to soften the broccoli, just to ensure that it's cooked fully..

6. Season it with some salt and add in the boiled pasta..

7. Lastly, add up the cherry tomato and leave it for 10 seconds before you turn off the stove.. (you could cook it longer if you prefer cooked tomatoes..)

The result of my campak-campak cooking..Feel free to give me the feedback if you had try this recipe.. hehe..  Well, I just couldn't have enough of this and loving it so much..! it's okay to praise your own cooking, right..?💅

Assalammualaikum.. To those whom had read the information tag, you may know that I'm actually on a weight loss journey.. It was my own desire to be on this route and luckily, I'm surrounded with positive vibes and supportive friends.. However, I always lost the battle with my own lust over food and I always need a timeline for me to accomplish and slowly achieve my goals.. I'll be updating my progress as a reminder for myself and hence, stopping myself from giving up or lose from the track..

The first time I decided to focus on my diet, it was when I entered the hostel of KPTM KL.. However, my diet kept switching and it was hard for me to be strict with my diet, as I need to cook in order to be in a clean diet.. I started to be totally serious when I moved to a rent house and I managed to cook my own diet food.. However, I'm taking it slowly as there's nothing to rush me.. When one of my sister, Ateh, told me that she was getting married, that was when I'm in rush.. She decided that all of my girl siblings should wear a dress from their favourite shop, Imaan Boutique, which I had never own one due to my big size..

When the boutique came out with the sale, my sisters brought me to the shop to give a try on the biggest size available and the result was just like I expected... I couldn't zip in the dress..  It was only less than 3 months left from the date and without thinking further, they just grab the dress for me, despite the fact that I could not even wear it.. In order to make the money into a waste and for not be a weirdo during the big day, I'm determined to focus on Atkins diet.. Simply because it was the quickest way to lose weight for a busy and lazy person like me.. It might be a bit unhealthy but I had done a full survey of the diet and I'm alert with the consequences and how to avoid it from becoming a problem..
Alhamdulillah I'm not the weirdo on the day.. I'm the happiest person when I managed to fit in the dress and that's the end for the first timeline.. The 2nd timeline would end on the 1st March 2017, hoping I could fit into a new size of the same brand dress, for my another sister's wedding, Kakak... Oh well, Kakak promised for a new dress of my own choice if I managed to reduce one size and oh well, I guess Imaan Boutique dresses was one the reason of why I want and need to lose weight.. Simply because, my siblings love you and I'll love you too..     

Assalammualaikum...

Being a big size girl is not an option.. I believe, no one asked for it.. It's just a fate that Allah had granted to certain people but humans tend to forget that.. Well, not everyone would but trust me, there are lots of judgemental people whom looking down at us.. Some may accept fat people as if nothing wrong with it but some would be cynical .. And that's what I've been going through for years...

When you're a kid, the term 'gemuk' would always hurtful enough but you wouldn't care.. Your life is all about having fun and eat delicious food but as the time past by, it would be hard for you to hear the word but actually people is insulting you silently... Well, I used to found a written doodle on one of the school table , insulting me as it's written, "(......) Razanah besar macam (.....)"

I censored them as it's would not be nice for people to read it.. Believe it or not, they became in chaos when they knew I had a bf at that particular time.. And some was eager to know how and why he chose me, as if he's blind enough to be with me.. Not enough with that, even my ex received their judgement, saying "oh biasa je.. " and "oh.. takde la hensem pun.."

After SPM, I'm too afraid to go to college simply because of my size... That's when I realize I'm becoming an introvert.. I didn't speak to anyone as I felt like people are looking at me weirdly.. However, they approached me and somehow, everything changed... My perception that skinny people would not approved fat person as their friends had vanish.. Well, maybe not everyone would accept you in fat version but without realizing it, you tend to just ignore it.. Afterall, it's the process of being an adult and size won't be a matter in friendship anymore, at least for some people.. Right?