Chapter 108: A Week Without You.....

Thursday, October 3, 2019

Assalammualaikum...

Pa... It's been exactly a week since you left.... It was not a pleasant memory on how you had left, how I woke up to you bleeding on the floor.. Pa... I'm sorry that I was sound asleep when you fall down.. I'm sorry that me and ibu woke up late that day... I'm sorry that I didn't spent more time with you that night... I could barely let myself loose without any regrets but since you left us on a blissful Friday; the day of hope for everyone whom left the dun-ya, I could only keep praying to Allah to deliver my love for you and for Him to guide me to follow your way....

Pa... I hate the fact that I had never expressed on how much I love you, as I thought you won't left us without any signal.. Our last moment together, it would remain with me forever... I'm glad that I finally could talk about my life in college with you, though that would be our first and last talk but at least, I bet it eased you out a little knowing that I'm in a good hand for my fyp... Pa, I'll be staying in Seremban for good... I'll take care of ibu while finishing what I have started, but I pray Allah gave me strength to complete these tasks... 

Remember last year you used to tell me that you never care about Master or Phd anymore, to just stop my journey till degree level and just get a job...? I thought you lost hope in me, not knowing it was a sign that you're getting tired... I got your signal now, and I will stop when this ended pa... For once, I will grant your wish but I won't promise you that I might not chase it anymore... It was a vow pa, a vow from my heart to you, so I might continue but for now, I'm taking a break... 

always in my memory: Hamid Abd Kadir bin Mohd Shariff [27.2.1953 - 27.9. 2019]

Thank you pa, for all these 25 years of raising me, for bearing with me, for having faith in me despite of how much I let you down, for being proud of me despite of you never expressed it to me and for every single love that you had poured silently towards me... Thank you for being the best father for us, thank you for educating us up to this level and yet, even after you left, there were so much surprised that we had found through your documents which reflected how great you were... We could never be as good as you pa, and life without you, it is a start of my messy life.. Rindu yang tiada penghujung, kini bermula.... Al-fatihah... 



5 comments

  1. salam takziah anis. semoga arwah papa anis ditempatkan bersama orang2 yang beriman. Amin.

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  2. Al fatihah. Semoga arwah ditempatkan di syurga x

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  3. Innalillahiwainnailayhirajiun... Salam takziah Anis. Semoga diampun dosanya, dan diterima segala amal baiknya. Aamiin

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  4. oh dear, may he be placed in heaven. i hope you will feel better soon.

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  5. Innalillahiwainailaihirojiun...
    Semoga arwah Papa Hanis dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama golongan beriman.

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