Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Chapter 83: Rambling Minds

Assalammualaikum...

Being someone in ones life is a pleasure.. To be called as friends, the acceptance in a group is something I belief, everyone's hoping for..But one thing that I hate about life,is that people could change in a blink of the eyes... I was once yelling to be back to the place where so called "home", a place where I felt I'm belong into... But right now.. Those excited feelings ain't there anymore... Everything... Just.. Felt.. So.. Wrong... 

It's getting awkward, day by day.. Those eyes.. Ain't pleasurable for me anymore.. All I could feel was a pretense, just like I had been doing some sort of mistakes and those unwanted feelings just getting stronger... I tried to comfort myself as if it was just my random feelings but how could this  unwanted feelings increase it's power every single day..? In the end, I'm just left out in depression of my own.. 
"Should I confront about this..?""
 Should I just discuss about this matter..?"
"What if it would made things worst..? I'm gonna need to meet them for at least, till the end of next year.."
In the end, this feelings remains in silence and the only solution that I could see, is to me to move out and find a little heaven, just for myself... It might be a little lonely, without them but at least, I'm not losing any of them directly.. Right..? And at least, we're good till the end, just what they had promised to me.. Let's just hope it would.. Guys... If any of you are reading this, I just want to let you guys know that I just love you guys so much that I don't want argue or be awkward with any of you...  Let's just stay friends till the end..😊

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  1. Whatever happen may Allah ease everything for you :)

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  2. May Allah ease your path Anis. :) keep smiling.


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  3. Better to distance from people who makes you feel uneasy.

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    1. Indeed and I'm glad it's the right decision that I had done.. ❤️

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  4. Hope they read your post and keadaan kembali normal seperti sebelumnya.

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    1. Well, I'm no longer living in the same house but our relation seems to be better.. :)

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  5. It hurts to have those feeling but my solution would be to confront them about what exactly happened just to relieve yourself and at least you know where you stand in between them. At least no more awkwardness, hopefully. I couldn't do anything but just to wish you the best in whatever the solution you came up with on this matter. Be strong Anis, every problem has a solution ;)

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    1. It could be better to confront but thinking there's more than a year to be in the same class, I should avoid it.. Anyways, Thank you Lya..! ❤️

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  6. Yeahh! let's just stay friend!! hehe ^^ Love you too.. three,four,five <3 hehe *don't get awkward please haha >_<

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    1. hahahahahaha... you made me laugh... Thank you Hana..! ❤️

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