Chapter 16: Drapetomania

January 15, 2017

" Aku terima nikahnya ..." 
and she couldn't hear the rest of the words anymore... Tears started to roll down on her cheeks and her heart was screaming loudly inside.. She felt like bursting out loud but she wouldn't want to ruin the mood.. Why did she feel that way?

It's the final wedding before her and now, as she's the only unmarried child,  she felt lost on her own.. She was able to hold herself from losing further and acted like she was fine.. But the feeling won't last forever.. Her heart screamed louder when it was the moment for the family portrait event..
"Okay, grab your partner and get ready for the picture.."
While all of her siblings were busy to get into position of their own partner, she was left alone, sitting at  the center position all on her own, pretending to be laughing while her heart and mind were totally losing itself.. Her tears were still there but people thought it was because she laughed too much..
Right after the session was over, she tried hard to heal herself but the crowd made it worst.. She wouldn't bother for any words mentioning that her turn would be next, as clearly, she was the only one left in the family.. 
"eh, cari la sekarang kat kolej, cari yang sama course, baru senang nak berkenalan.."
"Nanti la.. Jauh lagi perjalanan.. Diploma pun belum habis.."
"Carik je.. Buat apa tunggu lama-lama.."
Can't people just leave her alone? She already had a harsh feeling but how could people make it worst? 
Drapetomania is all she has now.. Hopefully, she would feel better soon.. 
Drapetomania; an overwhelming urge to run away.. 
 written by;
-Flavnesz @ Chapters-

20 comments:

  1. Saudara mara dear , always with the questions. Never ending questions. Dah kahwin nanti, tanya bila dapat anak pulak. Dapat anak 1 tanya bila nak tambah anak. Perkara biasa tu.

    Just relax and calmly answer them :) Itu juga apa yang siqah buat :) Terasa juga sebenarnya tapi fikir positif yang mereka ( family ) nak kita happy :)

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    1. Memang buat relaks je siqah just dalam hati, I hate people involving my privacy..

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  2. Siqah dah komen tadi, tak sure awak dapat ke tak? Alaaaa ~

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  3. Satu perkataan baru utk sis. Best plak baca entri nie. Good job dear :)

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  4. ok, this is quite exaggerated. like does people actually give that much of a hard time? omg, i'm killing them.

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    1. Well, sometimes, they do.. lol.. let's kill them together.. XD

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  5. Might as well say that I have drapetomania 24 hours a day :'(

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  6. I just wanna say Hi. And I have followed you. :D

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  7. sigh, those kind of people is annoying. can't they see that jodoh tak tergolek terjatuh dari langit.

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    1. Ikr.. Dia ingat senang nak dapat agaknye..

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    2. Hahaha I love Rasya's comment! Memang, ya Allah, takde jodoh jatuh dari langit.

      But dear, after living with these privacy questions, somehow I hate they ask that although maybe they are just trying to initiate conversation / they do care about us.

      Then, after having hard time to think what should I reply to them, I came out that time with just, "Jodoh sesat lagi kot, dia tengah cari jalan. Doakan yee". Hahaha

      hanisamanina.com

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    3. hahahhaha.. I really love you guys.. Serius response memasing ohsem.. XD

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  8. i know that feels, but i'm in different situations, some relatives keep asking when will i get a job, will i continue my study. maybe they just want to know and keep the conversations going. so, be positive in fact i'm quite sad inside. wuhuhuhuh :3

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    1. Well, they would always go stage by stage... It hurts sometimes, asking a question regarding on fate..

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  9. can't they just understand that it wasn't easy to look for the other part of us? lol karang main cekau kang we're the one suffering - others wouldnt, they would only continuously talk *emosi tetiba*

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    1. tau takpe.. eh nak emosi jugak ni.. haha

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