Assalamualaikum.
Current situation: In class; pouring out inner thoughts while the kids are copying Sejarah notes.
I don't know where and how I should start, but I'm forcing myself to pour everything out because Razanah Anis seems dead lately. She's been living emotionless; she can't really laugh or mingle around like she used to. She has been doubting (maybe judging) every single human who appeared in front of her. It's not like she wants to; she's just... being insecure.... She's having trust issues, and she doesn't have any faith in friendships anymore.
However, it's too suffocating to have a life like this, and I kinda wish I could just fix myself. I want to allow people to step into my life while I could still protect myself and not be as easy as I've always used to be. The old Razanah Anis, she's too soft-hearted, always there for people who she loved, and she's willing to keep forgiving people, as she's too afraid of losing the so-called friendship. Little did she know, that's what had been killing her the most.
I guess I shall end it here today.
17.9.2026 - Razanah Anis is trying to find her missing soul.
